Before What Could Never Be. A short story.

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  1. Jedi_Nifet Jedi Master

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    Title: What Could Never Be
    Author: Jedi_Nifet
    Genre: Romance, I guess :)
    Spoilers: For JA #4 and minor for JA #5
    Summary: Qui-Gon Jinn writes a letter to Elan
    Author's note: I have to give a credit to the man who prefers calling himself O-D for
    the idea of this pairing. Also I took liberty to alter Jude Watson's story just a tad. This was written for the Love Letter challenge.


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    Dear Elan,

    Qui-Gon leaned back in his stiff chair and looked at the written words from afar. A sad and fleeing smile touched his lips briefly. In no way was it usual for him to write a letter on paper ? datapads were much more handy, he had to agree ? and even more unusual was what he was about to write. Still these words demanded to be written on paper, to be more personal than printed words on a cold datapad screen.

    These words? They are so official and aloof. They seem extracted from a notifying letter of Coruscant Transport Department. Like: ?Dear Master Jinn, we regret to inform you that once again your Padawan??

    Old wound, recently aggravated and barely starting to heal flared with almost physical pain. Eyes involuntarily landed on a static holo occupying the honourable place on his overfull bookshelf. Raven-haired boy winked at him from the holo, his cunning smile wide. A face of another young boy emerged from carefully shielded nook of the Jedi Master?s memory. Another mistake in the long row. Qui-Gon shook his head and forced his eyes to return to the sheet before him.

    No, these words don?t suit my letter. They don?t suit HER.

    Strong calloused fingers crumpled the paper steadily and threw it into a waste bucket next to his table. Picking another sheet, he leaned over and started anew.

    My dearest Elan,

    Today I had a walk around the Temple's Art Galleries. Yes, we do have such a thing here. One can always find time for art, even someone whose life is as regulated as Jedi's is. But today I was not craving for art - truth be said, I barely noticed what I was seeing at all. I suppose I went there to find solitude and time to think, to escape the suffocating confines of my empty quarters. They shouldn't be this way, and I even was beginning to imagine they wouldn?t be for a long time, but... Yet this is a story I do not wish to bother you with. Enough to say that everything is way too different from what I, old fool, was expecting...

    And walking those Art Galleries was when I found it ? her. I cannot bring myself to call this graceful piece of beauty an "it". It was a statue ? and something much more than that. Made by traditions of old, she looked ancient yet so fresh and full of life as a newborn. I didn't read her name ? I had no need to. For me she was you, Elan. And she brought up memories of the days you and I spent together.

    From the first moment I heard your name I knew you. It was not a connection through the Force ? it was something much deeper, much more human, much more emotional. It was because of this connection that I ventured to intrude into your land. It was because I was absolutely confident I knew you very well that I did it.

    Do you remember that time in the tent where you helped me dress my wounds? I can still feel your hands over my skin ? warm and calming like a balm, soft. Your hair were brushing my back? Do you remember the kiss we shared? It was too sweet to be true, pure, almost innocent: a manifestation of what we felt. And I know you felt the same way I did.

    This statue? She is very much like you: strong, fearless, independent, proud. Kind. And at this time of despair I find myself wishing you were here next to me. Maybe your miraculous hands would have been able to heal those invisible wounds running deep through my heart.

    But you are not here. This feeling we shared for those brief days was doomed from the start. It is something that didn?t come true and was never meant to be. Yet I keep catching myself thinking: what if... What if it could happen?

    I am not used to put my thoughts into
  2. PadawanKitara Force Ghost

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    Dec 31, 2001
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    Dear Master Jinn, we regret to inform you that once again your Padawan? [face_laugh]

    I assume Obi found it and mailed it after QUi-Gon's death.
  3. Jedi_Nifet Jedi Master

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    Your assumption is absolutely correct. ;)
  4. Jedi_Nifet Jedi Master

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  5. Xeana Jedi Knight

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    Nov 9, 2003
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    Whoa. That was really touching. Great job!!!
  6. Jedi_Nifet Jedi Master

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    Thank you, Xeana. Glad you like.
  7. eequo Jedi Knight

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    Mar 8, 2004
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    nice story, really nice story. I felt like i was really there, great job. Keep up the good work!
  8. Jedi_Nifet Jedi Master

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