Eh, first off, the problem you have with this choice between God and death can hardly be compared to being raped and being put to death. Sure it can. If you sincerely believe, after great soul-searching, that the biblical God is not what he claims - a loving creator - then to follow him would be exactly like being spiritually raped. I am sadly not too shocked by your comments regarding consent and rape. This is where the dualism of Christianity and Islam becomes such a dangerous, unloving thing. If the dualism of your faith forces you to align sex had under threat of death with a consensual act of love (or at least recreation), then that reaffirms the widely held view that Christianity is nothing more than a smokescreen for hate. Ah, well. (shrug) How about if the rapist said, "Screw me, or I'm killing your kids" and you let him have sex with you. Is that consent?