Why Live Life From Dream to Dream... {JA, angst} |COMPLETE 6.2.05|

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  1. Psycho-Freak Jedi Master

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  2. Jovieve Jedi Master

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  3. Psycho-Freak Jedi Master

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    *walks into thread carefully avoiding various spider webs hanging from the ceiling*

    Hellooo, CK where are you? *echoes*


    Upsie daisies! :p
  4. Jovieve Jedi Master

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  5. Psycho-Freak Jedi Master

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  6. CalaisKenobi Jedi Master

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    Yikes... the neglect these poor stories have suffered. *Eradicates all of the spiders*

    I need to reread some of this, to remember where I was and where I was going, but I should have a post for this in the next week or so.


    Sorry for making you wait so long!

    CK
  7. PaddyJuan Force Ghost

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  8. Arldetta Jedi Master

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    Muses are a rare commodity. You can only find a good one once in a blue moon. I was fortunate enough to find you. I hope to catch you around soon. I missed you! :D
  9. PadawanKitara Force Ghost

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    She's come back to life here too :)
  10. C3SoloP0 Jedi Master

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    Well.....i had completely forgotten about this but going back a bit, I do remember this fic was awesome........

    Hope you'll be able to write more CK.... :)
  11. CalaisKenobi Jedi Master

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    Hey everyone. I know I've been absent for awhile, but I honestly have a good excuse this time ;) (And please understand my levity, I'm trying really hard to deal with something I never expected to have to.)

    Anyway, I'm posting this note to all my threads, so that everyone knows what is going on. Sorry for not doing replies, but between writing this and trying to tell others, I can't handle much more.


    So... well, I thought I had a bad headache. Instead, I have optic neuritis. Basically my vision is affected and I can't really use the computer much or read or write. It will be a few weeks before I can do so again, and maybe longer since starting next semester will have to take first priority. Hopefully, this turns out to be only a case of optic neuritis and not the first attack of Multiple Sclerosis... I will hopefully find out I am in the minority and am one of those very lucky few who manage to only get this from some unknown reason.

    Anyway, thanks everyone for staying along for the ride.. from POS to Tide, I appreciate all of your support for a sometime writer ;)

    CK
  12. CalaisKenobi Jedi Master

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    I think I will try to wrap this up, as much as it could possibly be ;) , in the next post. Thanks for hanging on so long

    CK
  13. obaona Force Ghost

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  14. Psycho-Freak Jedi Master

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    *sets camp and waits for next post*
    :D
  15. Happy_Hobbit_Padawan Force Ghost

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  16. CalaisKenobi Jedi Master

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    Alright. Well I think I may be able to write a final post for this during this week if there is any interest. I am honestly not craving replies, I just want to know if I should spend the time on this, or on something else I would rather do ;)
  17. Gkilkenny Force Ghost

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    It would be nice to see the finished result

    I certainly liked the story
  18. CalaisKenobi Jedi Master

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    Well, then, I will take that as a yes. :-D I should have a post up in a few mintues.
  19. CalaisKenobi Jedi Master

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    So much time has passed. I guess I?ve grown, changed, become a better person. Or perhaps that is merely the medicine talking. Am I truly happy, or am I merely being held up by yet another false front?
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    As their transport stood waiting, Qui-Gon surreptitiously watched his Apprentice. The boy had grown into an incredible young man, strong in the Force, powerful in body and truly gifted in intellect. And yet, there still seemed to be a shadow that hung over the Padawan. Even if the young man had emerged from the shell he had once hidden in to become one of the most popular and well-known Jedi, there was still some ineffable hint of sorrow that surrounded Obi-Wan.

    ?Are we ready Master?? the softly accented voice asked, startling the Master from his musing.

    ?I believe so, Obi-Wan,? Qui-Gon answered with a soft smile. ?I suppose I should actually be asking you that question. It seems that while I?ve been standing around woolgathering, you?ve managed to, yet again, secure everything for our trip.?

    ?I apologize Master,? the Apprentice began, only to be cut off as Qui-Gon laid a hand on his shoulder.

    ?There is nothing to apologize for, Obi-Wan. If anything, I should ask your forgiveness for holding you back as much as I have,? the Master said quietly. ?You were ready to be a Knight nearly a fortnight ago, but I could not bear to have you leave my side.?

    ?No Master,? Obi-Wan denied vehemently. ?I still have much to learn from you. I?m not ready to be on my own yet, now or possibly ever. You and I both know that the Council is extremely reluctant to allow a Jedi with a dependence such as mine out into the field alone. I will only serve the Jedi as long as I can stand by your side.?

    ?Obi-Wan, there is not much more I can teach you,? Qui-Gon declared. ?And you might be surprised by the level of faith the Council has in you. Your ?dependence? as you call it, is not as much a weakness as you think. In some ways, it may even have made you a stronger, and better Jedi,? the Master finished cryptically.

    Gently squeezing the shoulder still held in his grip, Qui-Gon gestured toward the lowering ramp. ?It looks as if our pilots are ready for us to board. Lead the way Padawan.?

    With one last, deeply searching look into his Master?s unfathomable blue eyes, the Apprentice turned and walked quickly up the boarding ramp unto the diplomatic shuttle, headed toward yet another trying negotiation with the Trade Federation.

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    I?m not ready to stand on my own yet. I?m not nearly prepared enough to be a Jedi Knight. I hardly feel prepared to be a Padawan! I?m not ready for my Master to leave me yet? I need him to guide me and lead me. I wouldn?t know who I was if I didn?t have him to show me what a true Jedi is.

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    ?Master, I have a bad feeling about this,? Obi-Wan murmured quietly as he and Qui-Gon stood waiting for the Trade Federation Representative.

    ?Do you sense a clear and present threat?? the Master asked, trusting in his Apprentice?s stronger connection to the Unifying Force.

    ?Not yet,? the Padawan whispered, after a few tense moments spent searching the rays of the Force. ?But something is clearly wrong here. It would be best if we were cautious.?

    ?Be on your guard then Padawan,? Qui-Gon urged. ?Let me know immediately if you feel anything else.?

    Nodding to show his understanding, Obi-Wan carefully shielded his mind and thoughts, tucking his arms up into the sleeves of his voluminous robe. Any who saw him, would merely see a silent and studious young Padawan, instead of the powerfully trained young Jedi that he was.

    /If only my Padawan was not one of those caught up in the ruse of his own deceptive appearance/ Qui-Gon thought ruefully. /It is amazing that he doesn?t see how ready he is to be a Knight? or even a Master?/

    Maintaining the appearance of the stoic and silent Jedi Master
  20. CalaisKenobi Jedi Master

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    And Finally... THE END




    I?ve always hated being alone in my own head. It always seemed so dark and lonely. Somehow, this planet feels the same way. I don?t know if it is the despair of the people stranded here, or something intrinsic to the very makeup of this place, but I know I do not wish to spend any more time here than necessary.


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    ?The deal will be for the boy and his mother, or you can consider the whole deal off,? Obi-Wan declared as he held the Toydarian?s gaze.

    ?You strike a hard bargain, Jedi,? Watto finally admitted, after waiting a few more moments to see if the young man would back down. ?But I will accept your terms.?

    Slapping hands to seal the deal, Obi-Wan concealed his relief at having managed to deal for both Anakin and Shmi. Leaving the woman behind was against everything the young Jedi believed in, even if Qui-Gon would be sure to disagree.

    ?The Queen will not approve of this,? Padme hissed into Obi-Wan?s ear as the Toydarian wandered off to begin spending the dactarians he was certain he would win.

    ?I believe the Queen is compassionate enough to not want to leave a child in such bad conditions,? the Apprentice responded, as he picked his way through the milling racers toward where Anakin waited.

    ?Hmmph,? Padme sighed, as she followed behind the young Jedi.

    Smiling softly to himself, Obi-Wan found himself admiring the spunky young leader more and more. She seemed to have a poise and confidence well beyond her years? even if she was oftentimes a bit more confident than she should?ve been.

    ?Obi-Wan, can you believe how many people are here!? Anakin crowed as he noticed the Jedi?s approach.

    ?I?m sure you won?t even notice them once you get into your racing pod,? Obi-Wan answered quietly, correctly realizing the young boy?s fear and anxiety. A life of slavery had quickly taught the boy to hide his emotions behind a wall of false bravado and courage. It was something Obi-Wan could relate to.

    ?Anakin, be careful out there,? Padme admonished as she joined Shmi Skywalker beside the racing pod.

    ?Don?t worry Padme, this is nothing!? Anakin declared, flashing her a jaunty smile.

    ?Padme, why don?t you and Ms. Skywalker find a good place for us to watch the race,? the Jedi Apprentice suggested. ?I?ll be along as soon as I help Anakin finish getting ready.?

    Placing a weather worn hand on Padme?s shoulder, Shmi smiled gratefully. ?Anakin, we will be waiting for you. I?m so proud.? Giving her son a quick hug, Shmi carefully herded the young Queen toward one of the viewing boxes.

    ?Anakin, it?s all right to be nervous or scared,? Obi-Wan stated nonchalantly as he carefully scanned the pod to make sure all the parts were in good working order. ?It does not make you weak? actually, it makes you so much stronger than you know.?

    Determining that the Pod was in good order, except for a loose power coupling, Obi-Wan lifted the tow-headed boy into the cock-pit. ?Remember, it is your natural reactions, be they fear or anger, that make you the person you are. Don?t try to hide them, allow your emotions to guide you.? Giving the boy one final encouraging smile, the Jedi Padawan stepped to the side just as the first warning bell went off.
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    I see so much of myself in Anakin. And yet, he is so much better of a person than I can ever be. His insecurity and fear are understandable, and yet he should have nothing to be insecure about. Doesn?t he realize how great of a person he already is, and how great of a Jedi he will be?


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    His agreement with Watto taken care of, Obi-Wan quickly gathered Anakin, his mother and the Queen to him. ?The parts will be delivered to the ship immediately. We should head back now. There?s nothing more here for any of us.? Rubbing a hand affectionately through Anakin?s hair as he said the last, the Jedi Apprentice guided the two w
  21. CalaisKenobi Jedi Master

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    Thanks so much to everyone for sticking with this through some pretty slim times! I greatly appreciate the support, even if it seemed this story was bound to end up abandoned for life. Thanks everyone! *And if anyone has some plot bunnies lying around... I'm on the look out*

    CK
  22. Gkilkenny Force Ghost

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    What a surprise to jump across to the classic
    and see this done
    I liked the way you ended it
    with Obi surviving and Qui-Gon too.
    Fancy Obi being a soul healer

    Well done! ;)
  23. PadawanKitara Force Ghost

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    Glad to see you back up and running. That was an unexpected, but perfect ending :)
  24. Psycho-Freak Jedi Master

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    What a great surprise to find this finished. For a moment there I thought that Obi was a goner but I'm glad he survived, as well as Qui-Gon. Such a great ending. :)

    P-F
  25. Flashbacca Jedi Master

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    OMG you are back

    WELCOME BACK CK!!!!!!

    *does Wookiee dance of joy*

    gotta go read now
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