Jaden1138 posted:Yeah, I am here. Mostly. It is good to know why I was in so much pain pretty much since I joined this site. You know, you can't really be yourself when you are in pain. And I hope I can be myself soon. I can eat now without pain. It is something people take for granted. But wow, what a difference. Now I just have to battle the morning pain. I wake up in agony and have to take pain killers. I think I am sleeping wrong. My back kills me. I messed it up in the hospital from just laying there. The nurse pressed on it and I about screamed. My abdominal muscles hurt really badly in the mornings too. And the post-op depression is crazy. I am already mildly bipolar. But this is different. It is like a joke. You are in all this physical pain and then your mind decides to shut down. But I am getting better. Everyday something improves. Glad to be back, even in my limited form.