Beyond - Legends A Mother's Journal--Diary Challenge (AU Fels, Skywalkers, Solos)--Complete 1/3--Co-Winner!

Title: A Mother's Journal
Author: BigFatty
Timeframe: Thirty-seven years after NJO, AU
Characters: Airen & Nawra Mykos, Jaina & Jag Fel, the OC Fel sons, Jacen Solo, Soontir Fel, the Skywalkers, and whoever else decides to show up.
Summary: A mother's journal written to her unborn child.
Disclaimer: I do not own Star Wars or anything related to it. The only things in this story that are mine are Nawra, Airen, Gavin, Nik, Adannah Skywalker, and any progeny they or their canon contemporaries may have.
Notes: Part of the [link=http://boards.theforce.net/fan_fiction_resource/b10304/27816976/p1/?138]2008 Diary Challenge[/link]. This story picks up right where [link=http://boards.theforce.net/Message.aspx?topic=22322698&brd=10477&replies=6]The Family Album[/link] left off and goes from there. If you haven't read FA (or it's AU prequels), don't worry, the basics will be covered in the first post with little details shared afterwards. Hope you enjoy!






Entry #1

I've tried to keep a journal from time to time in my life. Mostly so I could be like my dad. At least once a day he pulls out his trusty datapad to make a note or record some tactic he likes. Mom has always mocked Dad for keeping his "diary". He doesn't fight her by saying it's a "journal" or attempt to correct her in any way. I guess when you're Jagged Fel, you're pretty secure in your masculinity.

Anyway, keeping one of these was something I used to be good at. And then I was drafted into missions with GA Intelligence. After over two years of having to pretend to be someone else and not keeping any records about it, I am out of practice.

But I now have good motivation--you. So here, just for you, I will keep a journal so that some day when you get this, you can know--and I can better remember--what happened at this stage of your life.

So let's start at the beginning: those clandestine missions. It was there I met Airen. One day, I'll give you details of how I fell in love, but at the moment it's classified. I can tell you that he lived up to his Corellian blood; he was stubborn, flirtatious, smart, and had a need for always being right. And like the women in my family, I fell in love with him for it.

I got out of our mission first, and shortly thereafter Airen tracked me down. We had to relearn each other, and frankly ourselves, too. It was difficult, but we managed. Two-and-a-half years after we finished our mission together, we married.

As soon as things calmed down after the wedding, Airen wanted to start a family. I held out for three years until I ran out of excuses. Within the last few months, Airen's job, as well as mine, became incredible stable and far less mobile.

Six weeks ago, Airen begged me to get rid of my fears and excuses. Have I mentioned how he's stubborn, smart, and has a need for being right? This time thankfully--especially for you--he was all three that afternoon. But please don't tell him I was so easy to admit that.

Three days ago, Airen left for a six-week mission to train snipers for the Galactic Alliance. This is the seventh time since we've been married that he'll be gone for more than a month. It never bothered me before; four of those times I had my own missions to tend to for the Jedi Council. But this time, I wish he had let someone else go. I know there aren't that many who are better at having that profession as he is, but still.

Last night, I took a quick trip around Ossus in the new shuttle the Council recently procured to test the systems. Everything went fine until about four hours after I landed--about 0500. I woke up and had to bolt for the refresher. I'll leave out the colorful details for you, but needless to say, I was incredibly sick.

Once my stomach calmed down, I tried to figure out why I was ill. It had been one of those nights where I got so busy that I forgot to eat dinner, so it couldn't have been a foodborne illness. The only thing I had done was read reports and flown the shuttle.

From somewhere in the back of my

 

Oh, yay! I liked The Family Album quite a lot, so a sequel is good news - and this time I get to read it from the beginning!

I can totally see Jag keeping a diary and not caring that it's called a diary, and I can see Jaina teasing him about it, too.

One day, I?ll give you details of how I fell in love, but at the moment it?s classified.

Such an "excuse me? " sort of thing, except that for Nawra's family, it's completely normal.

This is an excellent way to continue The Family Album. Makes perfect sense. I'm glad we get to follow the characters for a while longer.

 

Excellent!

 

Woo hoo! I am sooo stoked that you are continuing this story. You know how much I love Airen, and I can't wait for him to hear he's going to be a daddy.

Of course, knowing your father and his, shall we say, capabilities? actually, you probably don?t want to know about that, do you?

Baby might not want to know, but I won't mind listening.

They found me on their sofa looking through the family?s holo album

A great tie in to the family album series. I can see that story existing because of this moment.

 

Nothing: is better than that line.

I really loved this intro and thought it was true to the diary format without being overcome by the cliches of it. So brilliant, in other words.

Can't wait to read more.

 

WOO HOO! So glad to see this one! Please PM me when you update. I don't want to miss a post.

Your father. That looks so weird.

Anyway, I wish I could tell you that I was calm, excited, and collected when I found out. It would be a lie if I did. I was panicked, worried, and felt like my brain was going to overload with all the thoughts it was trying to process. So I did what any girl does when she?s scared?I ran to my dad. Or rather, my dad?s house.

That sounds about right.

 

Gabri: Glad you can get started from the beginning with this one. Thanks for sharing the Jag and his diary insight. And thanks so much for reading; I hope you enjoy it.

Padawan: Thanks!

Lola: I'm glad you're excited. And I'm sure Nawra can't wait for Airen to hear that he's going to be a daddy, too. And the fact that you can believe that this and FA fit together made me feel sheer relief. Thanks so much for reading.

_Tenel_Ka_: I'm glad you enjoyed that line. And I'm ecstatic to hear that it isn't full of cliches--that's one of my worst nightmares. Thanks so much for reading.

VaderLVR: I'll start a PM list just for you. Thanks so much for reading and being excited about the story.




Here's the current PM list. If you would like to be added or removed at any time, please let me know via comment or PM.

PM List:
diary_challenge_sock
VaderLVR64



And now I'm off to do some research for the next post...

 

Add me to your PM list, please. You're off to a great start!

 

Add me to the list please, this looks like it's going to be lots of fun to follow! Love the idea of Jag keeping a diary, and his daughter too!

 

I like this a lot. Please add me to the PM list.

 

*waves*

I know I'm not around here much and almost never comment anymore but... I just wanted you to know that I'm still reading. Faithfully, even.

Sorry if that?s hard to hear. I wish I could tell you that my first thought upon discovering you were something joyous and poetic. But it definitely wasn?t joyous, and our family isn?t known for its writing capabilities. Don?t think I don?t want you; I do. I know deep down I do, I?m just in shock. I didn?t think you?d come to us so soon. Of course, knowing your father and his, shall we say, capabilities? actually, you probably don?t want to know about that, do you?

That was, hands down, my favorite part!

This entry jumps all over the place... so like a real diary. Your writing is so much fun to read, BF I love the way you mature the characters in this alternate universe of yours and very much envy your ability to pump out updates no matter what. And, ftr, I can TOTALLY see Jag keeping a journal and being 'confident' enough to let others call it a 'diary'.

Zonoma

 

Hahahaha. Agreed about Jag's masculinity. Poor girl, with her husband gone when she finds out she's pregnant.

KT

 

Man this is great! If you have a PM list could you add me?

TWIN_SABER

 

Ah! I love how Nawra's in a sort of happy, confused, shock.

(Grandparents?kriff they?re going to spoil you rotten. And don?t say ?kriff?.)

You know, she's already getting into the mothering side of her. The way I learned to swear was essentiality the same way. And she's right, Jaina and Jag are going to spoil their grandchildren rotten.

If you have one, could I get on the PM list?

Emerald

 

dm1: Thanks so much, and I'll add you on.

Myriad_Daydreams: Glad you're looking forward to it. You've been added to the PM list.

HyperionRising: I'll add your name, thanks for the interest.

Z: I can't believe you actually responded, but I'm glad you did. Is it bad that I really didn't mean for it to jump around on purpose? Thanks so much for coming out of hiding to comment and I'm glad you like it.

Killik_Twilight: Airen will find out eventually, just probably not as soon as neither he nor Nawra would like. Thanks for stopping by.

Twin_Saber: Glad you liked it, and I will add your name to the PM list.

emerald54: I love it when people can see aspects of their own family in this series of stories. You may of course be added to the PM list.




I'm currently working on getting the next post cranked out and am determined to have it up before tomorrow night. Again, if you would like to be added or removed to the PM list, please let me know via comment or PM.




PM List:
diary_challenge_sock
VaderLVR64
dm1
Myriad_Daydreams
HyperionRising
Lola64
Twin_Saber
emerald54

 

Entry #2

I'm exhausted and I have to run to the refresher to appease my bladder more times than I can count it seems. I blame both of those on you. I'm probably going to be a horrible mother for saying something like that, but according to the datapad that was left on my desk the other day that contained the galaxy's most popular literature on pregnancy, I'm told it's a normal physical reaction. Therefore, I have medically sound reasons for blaming you for two of my more annoying troubles lately.

I'm already blaming a miniscule cluster of cells for the troubles that are going on in my life. Please don't hate me.

As for the datapad mentioned before, I'm fairly certain that came from my father. And judging by the age and use of it, I'm willing to bet he first came into possession of it when my mother was pregnant with me. I really do appreciate the sweetness of the gift, but I'm still bound and determined to have Airen be the first person I actually say the words "I'm pregnant" to. I might have to forfeit that ideal when I go for my appointment with the healers next week, but we'll see. You'll quickly learn how living in a family where it's impossible to keep a secret sucks the fun out of a lot of things. Sorry about that.

Still no word from your father. I'm sure he's having fun shooting at things and giving a hard time to rookies. He and my parents trade tips on how to break in green officers; it truly makes me feel sorry for all of their recruits.

I guess I could blame my exhaustion partly on Airen, too. I never wanted to be one of those women who needed to have a man in her life in order to function, and I haven't become one--not completely at least. Your father has thoroughly spoiled me. He's like an adult form of a security blanket. I can handle him being gone for a week or so, but after that I just don't sleep well without him lying beside me. I can remember my Grandma Leia talking about my Grandpa Han's snoring. She would constantly make jokes about it and talk about how many hours she'd been kept awake because of it, but told me privately one day that any time she was away from Grandpa that she couldn't fall asleep without the sound of him snoring beside her.

Airen doesn't usually snore, but I know how she felt. I can take care of myself, but it's just so nice and comforting to reach out in the middle of the night and feel him there. I don't know how many times I've tried to do that the past couple of weeks, but it's been more than I want to think about. He's going to be so upset to find out that he missed these first couple of months. Or extremely grateful depending on how much the elevated hormones in my body affect me.

 

Heh heh... Han snoring... that's a very amusing image.

 

I suspect a combination of both regret and relief, in regards to being away.

KT

 

I can only imagine that it'd be pretty hard for her to be without her husband when she's pregnant with their first child. I love how she recognizes that her child is only a "miniscule cluster of cells", but still writes about everyday things to it.

It's pretty late here, so I should go.

Emerald

 

He?s going to be so upset to find out that he missed these first couple of months. Or extremely grateful depending on how much the elevated hormones in my body affect me.

That is the question, yes. So how long are you going to keep this poor girl apart from her husband? She's going to drive herself crazy this way.

 

I guess I could blame my exhaustion party on Airen, too. I never wanted to be one of those women who needed to have a man in her life in order to function, and I haven?t become one?not completely at least. Your father has thoroughly spoiled me. He?s like an adult form of a security blanket.

Wonderful!

 

Yay! I'm so glad to see a continuation of this universe!

 

I know that feeling; I never sleep well when hubby is away, even if he snores (like Han, I guess, gotta love that!). Looks like that's going to be a way of life for me again. He just got a job far away, and will be gone all week again... Sigh, he's gotta make a living, though, and it's tough these days!

 

You?ll quickly learn how living in a family where it?s impossible to keep a secret sucks the fun out of a lot of things. Sorry about that.



I never wanted to be one of those women who needed to have a man in her life in order to function, and I haven?t become one?not completely at least. Your father has thoroughly spoiled me. He?s like an adult form of a security blanket. I can handle him being gone for a week or so, but after that I just don?t sleep well without him lying beside me. I can remember my Grandma Leia talking about my Grandpa Han?s snoring. She would constantly make jokes about it and talk about how many hours she?d been kept awake because of it, but told me privately one day that any time she was away from Grandpa that she couldn?t fall asleep without the sound of him snoring beside her. \

Love the story about Leia and Han. It's so true, that you get so used to it that when it's not there, you miss it.

And I'm sure that Nawra is not going to openly admit that fact to Airen. After all, she is her mother's daughter.

Very nice update BF. Thank you for the PM.

 

Hooray for an update! And double cheers for (semi-)tactful and (dare I say?) smug Daddy Jag. Favorite line? "Sorry bout that." I could just hear those words in my mind as I read them!

Z