Beyond - Legends All Things End -- Dear Diary Challenge / Talonverse OCs -- Completed

Right now I feel bad for the Jawa. I wonder what it'll take me to feel bad for Nash.....

 

I love that her therapist is a Jawa. He *is* a Jawa, isn't he? Or is she stalking him as a run-up to a Jawa?

Anyway, I do enjoy Nash. It's always such a joy to see a well-written sociopath. They're so *very* interesting!

 

Haha! This is so great!

Smiled at patient, with all teeth showing. Could not hear, but Bith patient looked panicy as operative left vicinity.

I think I'd be a little scared too. Heheh.

I would love to be on a PM list if you having one. If not, I guess I'll just have to stalk this story.

Keep up the awesome work!

 

Arrrrg! I responded to each of you and then the stupid site ate the post. THanks to all of you for reading and commenting.



______________________________________



23.01.xx ABY

Reviewed holorecordings of subject in domicile. Subject does indeed enjoy Rodian take-out. Subject watches evening news while eating, then spends 1.3 standard hours solving puzzles while listening to instrumental music of unfamiliar style. Trianii opera it is not. Operative's hearing obviously covers a broader spectrum than the subject's. Some of the higher pitched tones are quite unpleasant. Subject then retrieves datapad from desk and reads until 2000 hours exactly. Subject then retires to bed.

Tomorrow operative will inspect reading material in datapad.



24.01.xx ABY

Narrowly avoided being spotted by housekeeping droid. Retrieved holocamera from planter mud again.

Reading material is a mix of professional journals, personal letters from one Aroon Untin (from content Aroon wishes to be subject's fiance), and novels of some sort. Have copied several novels to own datapad for later perusal.

At appointment with Healer Viroj he asked if he could read my diary entries. I told him I would prefer not to show him. He seemed pleased by this. After a moment he said this was a good sign, that a desire for privacy meant I was writing more personal entries and making excellent progress. I didn?t disagree with him. He took my stare and silence as the desirable answer.

Would have left holocamera in office, but it felt unfair to the others who also had no choice about being there. Will simply watch through windows and smile some more.



25.01.xx ABY

Somehow I cannot imagine my demure, quiet, little healer in his specially made chair behind his too-large desk reading novels like these. With his pastel tunics and the fussy center part in his dark hair, I did not expect ridiculously fantastic horrors. Does he do it to relate better with his patients? Many of them are military personnel. But then, should he not read military fiction, rather than far fetched stories about mismatched groups of young beings working together to defeat the ghosts of Sith Lords who have come back from beyond death to try and enslave the universe again, and again, and again? I suppose that the body count turns out to be similar in both kinds of story, but the rest does not seem a natural fit.

I have read one of my healer's novels from beginning to end. It is filled with logical inconsistencies, and the tactical mistakes made by the protaganists are inexcuseable. No properly raised Trianii cub would have made such ridiculous mistakes.

This is supposed to be entertaining?

I do not understand.



26.01.xx ABY

Stood in bushes across from subject's office window, grinning at patients. Some of them smiled and waved back. Opperative then hid behind convenient tree. Try explaining that to someone who already thinks you are not firing on all thrusters.

Bith patient burst into tears.

This is less fun than opperative anticipated.

Perhaps if they were Imperials...



27.01.xx ABY

Stood outside subject's office window and made rude gestures designed to be caught in subject's peripheral vision. Stayed out of view of patients. First double-take was amusing. Subject's suspicious squint and coming to the window to search for better view even more amusing. View of subject trying to explain seeing something that was no longer there to 'mentally unstable' patients reduced opperative to breathless laughter.

This is much more fun than previous attempt.

 

View of subject trying to explain seeing something that was no longer there to 'mentally unstable' patients reduced opperative to breathless laughter.

This is much more fun than previous attempt.

I'm not sure whether I should find this hilarious or disturbing... Well, a little bit of both I guess. Good update Lilith! Nash is a such a cool character and so much fun to read and/or write about! Keep it coming!

 

I have read one of my healer's novels from beginning to end. It is filled with logical inconsistencies, and the tactical mistakes made by the protaganists are inexcuseable. No properly raised Trianii cub would have made such ridiculous mistakes.

This is supposed to be entertaining?

I do not understand.

Hahaha! You tell 'em, Nash.



Stood in bushes across from subject's office window, grinning at patients. Some of them smiled and waved back. Opperative then hid behind convenient tree. Try explaining that to someone who already thinks you are not firing on all thrusters.

Bith patient burst into tears.

This is less fun than opperative anticipated.

Awwwwwwwwwww. Somebody's heart just grew a few sizes, hmmmm? I love how she then proceeds to make the healer look like a moron. Haha!

Keep up the great work!

 

This was just an awesome post, there's no other way to describe it. The utter hillariousness was perfect... Two parts made me laugh out loud, and that's hard to do.

I have read one of my healer's novels from beginning to end. It is filled with logical inconsistencies, and the tactical mistakes made by the protaganists are inexcuseable. No properly raised Trianii cub would have made such ridiculous mistakes. <---that was perfect--I wonder how many idiots think that Rambo really could exist. Well, outside of our Talons, of course!

Stood outside subject's office window and made rude gestures designed to be caught in subject's peripheral vision. Stayed out of view of patients. First double-take was amusing. Subject's suspicious squint and coming to the window to search for better view even more amusing. View of subject trying to explain seeing something that was no longer there to 'mentally unstable' patients reduced opperative to breathless laughter. <---I love how you're making the shrink crazy. It's a total "What About Bob?" scenario.

Awesome! Keep it goin!

 

Seriously. Having a murderous cat stalk and "play games" with me wouldn't be a comforting thought at all! This is something that makes me snicker the whole way through! Wonderful work! Thanks for the update!

 

Hmmmm...I'm sensing a little bit of venom directed towards the million-and-one Star Wars novels...<grins> I like it!

Nice to see Nash 'playing.' So lovely to see a sociopath with a sense of humor...

 

Shouldn't somebody tell Nash not to play with her food?

Loving this so much!

 

Okay, dark times ahead for our fave feline sociopath....




28.01.xx ABY

Have been called into Healer Viroj's office for an 'emergency session'. He explained to me that what I had done was not actually funny. I am not convinced. He explained that he was not an appropriate hobby for me, and that I should stop stalking him. He said I was undermining his authority and slowing the treatment of others who needed help as much as I did.

I do not need help. I need him to sign me off as fit for duty and leave me alone. I said as much.

He is not convinced.

At least he was kind enough to return my holocamera from his domicile.



29.01.xx ABY

Bored today. Have run the obstacle course and visited the target range. Have even scheduled time on the flight simulators, since I am grounded from actual training flights until my court mandated healer signs off on my fitness for duty. Still bored.

I read another of the healer's novels. Perhaps I had been wrong, and my previous sampling was abherent. But no, this one was worse. There was little logic and even less tactical awareness from the protagonists. Before the end I found myself hoping the Sith ghost would slaughter them all, just to cleanse the galaxy of such stupidity. Almost destroyed my datapad when I hurled it against the wall in irritation.

Purged remaining reading material from datapad to prevent further damage.



30.01.xx ABY

I am writing this from a small, padded room in the hospital wing. They have returned my datapad to me so that I may comply with the orders of my healer.

At the regular meeting with my court-mandated healer today, he brought up the topic of hobbies again, asking if I had found one other than him. I pointed out that I had not followed him, nor appeared outside his office window, since he warned me that it was unacceptable behavior. He said, yes, but what positive behavior have you replaced it with? I ignored the question, since there was no point in stating the obvious.

I have plenty of hobbies. I collect rare blades and poisons, interesting xenobiological facts, and every martial art I can find that anyone will teach me. He dismisses these as being too work-related.

How can becoming more proficient at my chosen profession be a bad thing?

He flipped through some flimsies, said there was a note in my file about my being musically inclined. Someone had heard me singing after a particularly successful mission. Maybe, he said, I should join a choral group, learn to sing Trianii opera. Yes, he said, I should definitely sing Trianii Opera.

I understand they had to tranq me to stop the destruction of the patient's couch in Viroj's office.

Perhaps if he had not looked so much like a short, brown Human my reaction would not have been so severe.

I. Will. Not. Sing. Trianii. Opera.

Not ever again.

 

LOL. Nash is so awesome! And I'm with her on this one... I think it was funny, too.

I basically would agree with Nash even if I didn't. Wouldn't want to upset the cat and become the stalked.

Awesome update! I love this diary!

 

At least he was kind enough to return my holocamera from his domicile.

Such a considerate healer. Somehow I get the feeling that he's a little bit in over his head.

And I can't wait to see what's up with the opera.

Keep up the great work!!!

 

I dunno, personally I'm in favor of no Trianni Opera. Have you ever heard cats yeowling? Ew!

 

Trianni Opera, I imagine, is a lot like the musical 'Cats', only with less dressed up Humans...

Anyway, great update Lilith.

 

I. Will. Not. Sing. Trianii. Opera.

Not ever again.

Not ever again, huh? Obviously she was so successful with it...why wouldn't she want to be famous!

Another super funny post, great update!

 

Thanks to all my faithful readers!


Here's another post.


____________________________________



31.01.xx ABY

Healer Viroj came to visit, to talk to me about my 'unnecessarily violent behavior' in his office yesterday. I told him not to refer to Trianii Opera again and all would be as tranquil as he could wish. Not that there was much risk of a repeat performance. They doped me prior to his visit, and I was cuffed, hand and foot, and chained to the wall. He asked me why it bothered me so deeply, being quite careful not to actually say the words. Just as well, considering the chains put me in a less than cooperative mood, dope or no dope. I said there were unpleasant memories tied to that musical form. He said, obviously. Would I care to explain in greater detail. I said no.

If he doesn't know already, then I don't see that it's any of his business.

No Human will ever command me to sing again.

I explained that I had never come across references to that particular musical form in the performance of my duty, and that it would be very unlikely ever to come up again, so it was not something that would interfere with my work.

He said he would be the judge of that.

There was no mention of when I would be released.



01.02.xx ABY

When they doped me again, and brought the chains out as well, I knew Healer Viroj was going to visit. I get the feeling that he's scared of me. Maybe stalking him and grinning at him from the bushes was not the best way to convince him of my fitness for duty, but it was fun, and I was bored.

Now I'm really very bored. They don't even let me out for exercise, and the attendants got quite aggitated when I started climbing the walls. I don't have anything to do. I don't even have a window so I can stare out at the sky or stars. How is this place supposed to make people well in their souls if they give one nothing to do but turn inward until the outside world is only a vague dream?

It makes me sometimes wish that I had not purged the stupid stories from my datapad. Idiocy is better than nothing, even if I wound up rooting for the 'bad guy'.

Healer Viroj arrived, but I ignored him. I did not want to talk to him. He was only going to ask more questions about why I will not sing Trianii Opera. I am familiar with every classic opera written on the home world or either of the colonies. I am pitch and tone perfect on every opera written by Kaarellik or Morwroun, though I do not recommend the training methods involved.

It is music. It does not impact the performance of my duty in any way.

He said he needed me to talk to him about it. He said I should not be bothered by music and that he could fix that if I would only talk to him about it.

I do not want to talk about it.

I ignored him, and he finally went away.

Hopefully they will come take the chains off soon. I really do not like them.



02.02.xx ABY

No doping or chains today. No visit from Healer Viroj. My commanding officer, Colonel Crispin, stopped by, asked me how I was doing. He spoke very quietly, like I was ill or injured. I told him I was bored and they would not let me exercise. He said he'd see what he could do. He smelled uneasy. My pacing seemed to make it worse. Not that there is a lot of room to pace, but it is the only form of exercise I am allowed. Muscles will start to atrophy after only three days of inactivity. That is something that would actually impact my fitness for duty.

It makes me wonder what they told him before they allowed him in.



03.02.xx ABY

The only indication of passing time I have is the clock on this datapad and the arrival of my meals. If not for them I would feel as if I'd been stuck in here for months instead of only four days now.

When they brought the hypo and the chains again I tried to convince the attendants that they were unnecessary. Obviously I was not convincing enough. I knew better than to resist, though. No 'unnecessary violence' was required to get me to comply.

Healer Viroj came and I

 

Oh, wow... I really feel like I'm the one who feels trapped. Poor Nash. She's got to get out of there before I go kriffin' insane!

Great update, Lilith! You're doing an awesome job on the feel of this down-swing in the diary.

 

Whoa, what a freaky turn of events... in trying to cure her of her "insanity", he's driving her deeper into the pit of madness. Awesome post, very well done!

Based on this, I'd guess you and I probably have the same opinion of shrinks, too.

 

Peri, you're not the first to say that, but I have no experience whatsoever with shrinks of any sort. I only have second-hand accounts from other people, which are a mixed bag. What I do have, on the other hand, is a deep and abiding need for mental and emotional privacy, and that may be bleeding through. I understand some shrinks do wonderful work and help a lot of people. I also know that some are just yes-men who take people's money and tell them what they want to hear, rather than what they need to hear. *shrug*

 

I've never been to a shrink either. Wait, I take that back, my mother made me go to hers once, after a weird relationship/breakup combo. He was too smart to suggest I come back another time. But my Mom swore by him, so what do I know. Anyway...keep on freakin' us out, you're doing a great job! (J/k)

 

Awwww, poor Nash. I don't know how she hasn't gone nuts yet- I know I would. She's one tough kitty!

And I hope that crazy healer gets what's coming to him. Putting her in chains is probably not the best idea for helping her.

Keep up the great work!