Title: Code Breaker: The Journal of Kash Ferros Author: Divapilot Genre: drama and let’s see what else. Era: Prequel era. Characters: OCs, maybe some prequel characters down the road. Connected works: But One Hour Mine Don't Be Afraid of the Dark Entry 1 Master Quinnus said the other day that I have to be patient. We are all called to serve the Order, he says. Each of us brings unique gifts in the Force, and it’s our jobs to identify and develop them. It’s not too late for me. He assured me that I have the potential to be a Jedi, and even a Jedi in the Agricultural Corps does work that is important. He says that once I get control of my powers I can achieve whatever I want. That’s why I’m writing. Master Quinnus said I should document my activities so I can learn to recognize patterns in my behaviour. He said it would be good for me to take an assessment of my skills and an honest appraisal of my weaknesses. So – my skills. 1.I can get along with lots of people. In fact, I scored a 86.3 out of 100 on the social adjustment index. 2.I’m not dumb. I like to read and I especially enjoy history books. I passed all my science and mathematics classes. 3.Other assets. Let’s see. I can levitate objects, I can handle a blade adequately, I am a fairly good shot with a blaster. 4.I’d like to add that I am also devastatingly handsome. I’m a human male, aged sixteen standard years, I’m of average height and weight, I have dark hair. I’m thinking of growing a beard but I’m afraid if I do I will look better than the masters and then they‘ll get jealous, and who needs that trouble. My weaknesses. Oh stars, where to begin. I wouldn’t be on this farm if I didn’t have more points in the loss category than in the win category. 1.It doesn’t matter if I can get along with lots of people. I am not running for Chancellor. And I know I get too attached. When my friends leave or get rotated out to other assignments, I always feel sad. I should rejoice that they have new opportunities to explore the galaxy. Master Quinnus says that is why we avoid attachments, even to friends. It interferes with our primary goal of serving the greater good through the Force. But I can’t help it. I miss them. 2.I may not be dumb but I’m not smart enough to get nominated for the Exploration corps, so there’s no chance of me staying on Coruscant and eventually becoming a librarian or archivist. I only scored an 83.9 on that assessment and you needed a 90 to enter archival training. That’s where my friend Daria went- to the archives. She scored 96.1. 3.I can do lots of Force manipulation but I can’t sustain it. I lift an object and it feels like my head is going to explode. I practice my lightsaber training and then I feel like I need to sleep for an hour. I don’t think I will ever be in a battle where the enemy will agree to let me take a nap and we could pick it up later. What good is having the skill when I don’t have the stamina? And those visions I get – can’t wait to be driving a speeder someday when suddenly my mind is a hundred light years away and fifty years into the future. (I feel even worse for whoever my passenger is.) 4.It doesn’t matter what I look like. We aren’t supposed to care about our looks. Who am I trying to impress? No attachments, remember? I know that when I turn 19, I will be a legal adult and I can leave the farm if I want to. The thing is, even after all my loses and screw ups and mistakes, I still want to be a Jedi. It’s what I dreamed about doing all those years when I lived in the Temple in Coruscant, it’s what I’ve prepared for all my life. Master Quinnus says It’s rare but he’s seen people in their teens get selected from the Agricorps. He says that although it’s probably too late for someone to select me as a padawan, it could happen. But each year it seems less likely that anyone will want me.