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Saga - Legends Forbidden Emotions (AU Siriwan vignette) posted 6/27

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  1. JediMaster_Jen

    JediMaster_Jen Jedi Grand Master star 4

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    Title: Forbidden Emotions
    Summary: Obi-Wan’s forbidden emotions lead him on a dangerous path and to the ultimate choice. Will he strike down his enemy, or will a forbidden emotion pull him from the precipice of darkness?



    Disclaimer: George Lucas owns Star Wars, not me. Jude Watson owns the characters from JA and JQ, as well as the book Secrets of the Jedi and it’s entire contents, which inspired this little fic.

    Author Notes: This vignette was written for Aelan_Greenleaf, whose prize for delurking in one of my fics was a vignette of her choice: any subject, any characters.







    Attachment was forbidden. Love was forbidden. Passion was forbidden. Possession was forbidden. The tenants of the Jedi Code were simple. Each forbidden emotion was a path to the dark side. He’d been warned time and time again. It didn’t matter.

    He became attached to her.

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    ”I never want to see the day that we’re not together,” muttered Obi-Wan Kenobi as he held his wife in his arms.
    “As long as I have a say in it, you never will,” she whispered back. “I don’t plan on ever leaving you.”

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    Without realizing it, he became captivated by her beauty. Everything about her touched him. The way she said his name made him smile. Her gentle teasing brought him laughter. Her smile lit every dark corner of his heart. The way she believed in him brought him peace.

    He’d fallen completely in love with her.

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    ”I love you,” he told her.
    Siri spun around, her long blonde hair flying about her head. Her blue eyes blazed. “You what?” she asked, sure she’d heard him wrong.
    Obi-Wan moved closer to Siri, taking her into his arms. The more she squirmed, the tighter he held her. “I said that I love you. I can’t stop thinking about you, Siri. You occupy my every thought.”
    “You can’t love me,” she whispered to him. “It’s forbidden for a Jedi to love.”
    “I know. I don’t care,” he insisted. “I can’t sleep at night because my thoughts dwell on you, on your smile, on your voice; everything about you.”
    Silent tears made their way down her tanned cheeks. “I love you too.”

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    Obi-Wan found himself constantly needing her to feel complete. He ached for her; his heart and his body craved her presence. He found it hard to breathe without her in his arms. His perceptions were clouded unless she was near.

    Like liquid fire, his passion for her was consuming him.

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    The sounds of labored breathing cut through the silence of the empty Jedi Temple hanger bay.
    “We have to stop,” Siri whispered as she tore her lips from his. “Someone may see us.”
    Obi-Wan drew her further into his embrace, his lips attacking her slender neck. He pulled back for a moment to look into her soft blue eyes. “I can’t stop, I don’t want to. If someone sees…then they see; it doesn’t matter.”
    Siri wanted to believe him. Every look, every kiss, every touch they shared brought them that much closer; so close she didn’t often know where she ended and he began.
    “It doesn’t matter,” he whispered again. “I love you. I want you.”

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    Frantic was the best way to describe his state of being. Siri was being watched by Senator Elian Gravis. He could sense the man’s attraction to her. After all, Siri was beautiful. But she was his. It didn’t matter to Obi-Wan if anyone else looked at Siri, or if they wanted her. She was his now and she would remain that way until he breathed his last.

    Her heart, her soul, her body; he wanted to possess her. He did. The need to possess had entered his being.

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    ”We were only talking,” Siri argued.
    “I don’t care!” came the screamed answer from Obi-Wan. “He touched you, Siri. He touched you and you let him.”
    “You’re being completely ridiculous, Obi-Wan,” Siri calmly told him. She could see the rage in his blue eyes. He was beyond angry. He was possessed.
    “I am not being ridiculous!” he screamed at her. “He touched what is mine.”
    “Yours?” she asked, unable to believe he’d actually said those words. “I may love you but you do not own me, Obi-Wan Kenobi.”
    Just as Siri turned to walk away from him, Obi-Wan reached out and pulled her to him. He held her close and looked deep into her eyes. “But I do, Siri. I do own you. I own your heart and your body and your soul. Just as you own mine. We own each other and we belong to each other. We possess each other. Forever.”

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    Fear, hate, anger; all three led to the dark side. All three were pouring off of Obi-Wan Kenobi as he jumped down into the ship. His eyes immediately landed on the still form of Siri Tachi.

    “Oh Force,” he whispered as he walked slowly towards his love and knelt down beside her. His fingers immediately went to her neck to check for a pulse. He knew before he touched her what he’d find. Siri was dead.

    *******************************************************************

    “Where is he?” Anakin Skywalker demanded as he stepped up next to Padme.

    “He went inside the ship,” she explained. “Anakin, something is wrong.”

    Anakin sighed deeply. “I know.”

    Padme glanced at him, her look asking the question before she spoke it aloud. “What do you mean?”

    “Master Tachi is dead,” he said without preamble.

    Padme gasp coincided with Obi-Wan climbing from the ship and striding towards them. Anakin could sense as well as see the anger and rage on Obi-Wan’s face. He’d known for years that his mentor loved Siri and that she loved him; had seen it between them on numerous occasions. Losing that would certainly crush his Master.

    “Master, I’m…,” Anakin began. “…I don’t know what to say.”

    “Get out of the way, Anakin,” Obi-Wan harshly commanded.

    Startled by the tone of voice, Anakin moved immediately. He and Padme watched silently as Obi-Wan unclipped his lightsaber from his belt and ignited the brilliant blue blade.

    “Anakin, do something,” Padme whispered. “He’s going to kill him.”

    Anakin’s icy gaze fell upon the writhing, twisted form of Magus, the man responsible for Siri’s death. Taly Fry was standing above the crumpled man, holding a blaster rifle on him, ready to fire should he make even one small move. Anakin found himself hoping that Taly would find reason to kill the man.

    Obi-Wan pushed in front of Taly. The younger man moved away, but not so far that he couldn’t still get a clean shot at Magus.

    Obi-Wan angled his lightsaber down and held it at Magus’ neck. He could see the fear the bounty hunter felt at that moment. He knew his life was about to come to an end.

    Anakin stepped up next to his mentor, his own glowing green saber lit. “Don’t do it, Master. She wouldn’t want this.”

    Obi-Wan turned sharply to look at his teenage apprentice. “Do not presume to know what she would want me to do, Anakin,” he snapped.

    “I know that Master Tachi wouldn’t want you to let her death be the reason you betray everything the Jedi have taught you, everything that you are,” Anakin shot back. “She’d never have approved of what you’re about to do here.”

    Obi-Wan’s breathing was deep and heavy. Rage was building in his heart. Anger filled his mind. Hate was weaving its way into his very soul. He wanted to kill Magus. The bounty hunter deserved to die for his crimes and he wanted to be the one to exact his punishment. He wanted to avenge Siri’s death.

    “Don’t do this, Obi-Wan,” Anakin tried again. “Please, don’t do this.”

    ”Listen to him, my love,” they both heard in the distance.

    Their eyes snapped up and together they looked upon the shimmering blue figure of Siri Tachi. Her long blonde hair was once again framing her beautiful face and her blue eyes were shining in love as she looked at her beloved Obi-Wan.

    ”Don’t taint yourself, Obi-Wan,” the ghostly image of Siri begged. “Once you start down the dark path, forever will it dominate your destiny,” she quoted Master Yoda.

    Obi-Wan deactivated his lightsaber and fell to his knees. Tears gathered in his eyes and poured down his cheeks. “I’m sorry,” he whispered. “I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you, Siri. I should have….if I’d been faster or stronger or…,” he started, but stopped when his tears overwhelmed his ability to speak.

    ”You did everything right,” she said. ”Don’t betray yourself or the Jedi now by killing Magus in cold blood, in anger and hatred. It’s not your way. You’re better than that.”

    Anakin watched, amazed at the happenings. He’d heard of such occurrences like this, of dead Jedi coming back in ghostly forms. But he’d never seen it before and hadn’t ever been completely sure he believed it was possible.

    “I love you, Siri,” Obi-Wan managed to whisper through his tears. “I’ll love you forever.”

    Anakin watched as her shimmering figure moved in close and knelt down in front of Obi-Wan. She closed her eyes and leaned forward, brushing her lips over his. Anakin knew that they weren’t really kissing. It was no longer possible for her to be a physical presence in their world. But he could feel the peace that suddenly flowed through his teacher.

    ”Just as I will love you forever,” Siri whispered back.

    Obi-Wan opened his eyes and stood. He and Anakin watched as Siri gave one last wave and a brilliant smile before her glowing form faded into nothingness.

    “Are you alright, Master?” Anakin asked gently.

    Obi-Wan gave a small nod. “I will be, Anakin. I will be.”

    Padme and Taly weren’t sure what had just happened. But they knew that whatever it was, it kept Obi-Wan from venturing down a path best left un-traveled.

    Obi-Wan clipped his saber to his belt and looked down at Magus. The bounty hunter was beginning to move a bit more, his fear having bled away once the lightsaber was no longer close to severing his head from his shoulders.

    “Anakin, Taly, get him on board; he’s under arrest for crimes committed against the citizens of the Republic. He’s now a prisoner of war.”

    Anakin smiled. “Yes Master.”

    Later, inside the ship as they headed back to Coruscant, Obi-Wan was alone in his quarters. In his hands he held a holopic of himself and Siri. It had been taken years before, when they first fell in love. Both were smiling and obviously happy. She had inspired so many feelings in him. Love and hate, happiness and sadness, passion and rage, possession and the lesson of letting go; he’d experienced them all with Siri. He’d nearly lost himself, but she’d pulled him back from the edge of darkness. She’d saved him. He would always remember her, but he knew he must let her go. She would forever possess his heart, but hers was no longer his to possess. She belonged solely to the Force now.

    “Goodbye, my love.”
     
  2. VadersMistress

    VadersMistress Jedi Knight star 6

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    Wow. Beautiful work. Obi-Wan was so close to the dark side. SO close... But he didn't fall. Why is that love always leads to the dark side? :p At least this woman brought her man back. Did Padme? No.

    But that's for another day. :p ;)

    Wonderful job. Truly lovely.
     
  3. windu-the-warrior

    windu-the-warrior Jedi Youngling star 1

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    hey, great fic, haven't read Secrets of the Jedi yet, must ask, does Sirti Tachi die in it?
     
  4. VadersMistress

    VadersMistress Jedi Knight star 6

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    Yes she does. :(
     
  5. JediMaster_Jen

    JediMaster_Jen Jedi Grand Master star 4

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    VadersMistress Wow. Beautiful work.

    Thanks. [face_blush]

    Obi-Wan was so close to the dark side. SO close...

    Yes he was. He nearly fell right off the edge.

    Why is that love always leads to the dark side?

    I don't think it's love that leads to the dark side, but rather the fear of losing the person you love that leads to the dark side.

    At least this woman brought her man back. Did Padme? No.

    Yep, good ole Siri. She did it.

    Wonderful job. Truly lovely.

    Thanks so much.


    windu-the-warrior hey, great fic, haven't read Secrets of the Jedi yet, must ask, does Sirti Tachi die in it?

    Thanks.

    Like VadersMIstress says below, yes Siri dies. :(


    Thanks for reading.
     
  6. Arwyn_Whitesun

    Arwyn_Whitesun Jedi Padawan star 4

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    That was a great viggie, JMJ! :) I have to confess I haven't read Secrets of the Jedi, but you did a wonderful job with your fic in describing Obi-Wan's passion for Siri. Wonderful work! :D
     
  7. jacen200015

    jacen200015 Jedi Grand Master star 4

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    Now that! is what i'm talking about. :) *Sigh.* They make a great pair, don't you think?



    I know this is a vig buuuut is there any chance that you could make it into a full length fic? [face_praying]



     
  8. LadyPadme

    LadyPadme Manager Emeritus star 5 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    How sad!!! :_|

    But as one who has read Secrets of the Jedi it was very satisfying. I just hate how SW profic writers are so stingy with the mush!

    Beautifully done and much more satisfying :)
     
  9. DarkLadyRevan

    DarkLadyRevan Jedi Youngling

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    Wow wonderful. I have had a bunny after I read SOTJ to re-write that part and you did it beautifully :D =D=
     
  10. Bekah_K

    Bekah_K Jedi Padawan star 4

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    Wonderful job with this! =D= I too have read Secrets of the Jedi and your version is much better than that of the book.

    I liked that Siri had taught Obi-Wan about love and loss. And I was impressed how Anakin stepped forward to stop his mentor from doing something in a way that he would have later regretted. :)
     
  11. Healer_Leona

    Healer_Leona Squirrel Rangler of Fun & Games star 9 Staff Member Manager

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    First what a lovely gift for delurking!! Second.... sniff... I cannot believe that love would always lead to bad with the Jedi. They were just so unuse to it.

    Excellent viggie!
     
  12. DarthMousche

    DarthMousche Jedi Youngling star 3

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    That's so beautiful. I like your version better than the book. I bet THIS Anakin would bring his master tea instead of sneaking off every morning.

    Makes me wonder how Anakin knowing about Obi-Wan's love would change their relationship ... and probably the entire course of events.

     
  13. Aelan_Greenleaf

    Aelan_Greenleaf Jedi Youngling star 1

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    Oh no! Did I not reply to this before? I could have sworn I had... maybe it was a PM...

    Anyways, fantastic job! This was so great, I loved how close Obi-Wan came to the edge, but he didn't go over. Thanks so much for writing this! I should delurk more often. :p
     
  14. VaderLVR64

    VaderLVR64 Manager Emeritus star 8 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    Sad and beautiful and :_|

    But I loved it! As always, your incredible talent shines through!
     
  15. JediMaster_Jen

    JediMaster_Jen Jedi Grand Master star 4

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    Arwyn_Whitesun That was a great viggie, JMJ!

    Thanks so much. :)

    have to confess I haven't read Secrets of the Jedi, but you did a wonderful job with your fic in describing Obi-Wan's passion for Siri. Wonderful work!

    Oh, you have to read the book. It's a wonderful story. Thanks for the compliments.


    jacen20005 that! is what i'm talking about.

    Thanks.

    They make a great pair, don't you think?

    I really do think that. :)

    I know this is a vig buuuut is there any chance that you could make it into a full length fic?

    No, I don't think so. I mean, I'm sure there is a way I could turn it into a full length fic, but with my other two fics I'm writing, it'd be too much to add a third.


    LadyPadme How sad!!!

    I know. :(

    But as one who has read Secrets of the Jedi it was very satisfying. I just hate how SW profic writers are so stingy with the mush!

    Well, thanks. I liked the book, but there was just too much left undone and unsaid between the two of them. I had to fix it!! So I did. :)

    Beautifully done and much more satisfying

    Thanks you very much.


    DarkLadyRevan Wow wonderful. I have had a bunny after I read SOTJ to re-write that part and you did it beautifully

    Me too. I knew after reading it that it should have had more of a reaction from Obi-Wan. He loved her, even he couldn't be completely stoic under those circumstances. The book didn't do that moment justice, so I rewrote it. :)


    Bekah_K Wonderful job with this! I too have read Secrets of the Jedi and your version is much better than that of the book.

    Thanks. [face_dancing]

    I liked that Siri had taught Obi-Wan about love and loss.

    That she did. Through her life, her love and her death, she was able to teach him some of lifes most gripping lessons.

    And I was impressed how Anakin stepped forward to stop his mentor from doing something in a way that he would have later regretted.

    Imagine that....the Chosen One being mature and helping his mentor.


    Healer_Leona First what a lovely gift for delurking!! Second.... sniff... I cannot believe that love would always lead to bad with the Jedi. They were just so unuse to it.

    Excellent viggie!


    Well, I don't think it's loving someone that necessarily leads to the dark side, but rather the intense feelings we experience when we lose that person.

    Yes, Obi-Wan was unused to being in love, but it wasn't loving her that nearly turned him, it was losing her. He was fine until she was gone from his life.

    Thanks. :)


    DarthMousche That's so beautiful. I like your version better than the book. I bet THIS Anakin would bring his master tea instead of sneaking off every morning.

    Thank you. :) Yep, this Anakin was a little different I suppose.

    Makes me wonder how Anakin knowing about Obi-Wan's love would change their relationship ... and probably the entire course of events.

    I think it might have changed things drastically. I'm writing a fic right now dealing with that question, among other things. :)


    Aelan_Greenleaf Oh no! Did I not reply to this before? I could have sworn I had... maybe it was a PM...

    Yep, it was a PM. No worries. :)

    nyways, fantastic job! This was so great, I loved how close Obi-Wan came to the edge, but he didn't go over.

    Thank you so much. He certainly came close, didn't he? He was right at the edge.

    Thanks so much for writing this! I should delurk more often.

    You're entirely welcome. You picked a great topic and I thoroughly enjoyed writing this vig, and yes, you should de-lurk more often. :)


    VaderLVR Sad and beautiful and :_|

    Ah, don't cry!! Thanks.

    But I loved it! As always, your incredible talent shines through!

    Thank you. You're too kind.
     
  16. Briman

    Briman Jedi Padawan star 4

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    That was simply the most emotional and heartwrenching viggie that I've ever read, and I've read a few. Superb job, Jen! =D=

     
  17. JediMaster_Jen

    JediMaster_Jen Jedi Grand Master star 4

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    Thanks so much, Briman.
     
  18. JOINME

    JOINME Jedi Padawan star 4

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    I could have sworn I'd commented on this little gem, but hmm I hadn't.
    This was so moving, so tragic, so heartbreaking..it makes me mad at the prissy old Jedi Order. Just get over the whole forbidden thing. Sheesh.

    I love how you started off with all the elements forbidden to the Jedi, and how they all feature in Obi-Wan's love for Siri and her love for him. And it's all the more sad, because obviously it has to be a secret.

    and the ending....

    :_| :_| :_| :_|

    a tearjerker, but a beautiful viggie. and a wonderful gift for the delurker. Thanks for sharing! :)
     
  19. JediMaster_Jen

    JediMaster_Jen Jedi Grand Master star 4

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    JOINME I could have sworn I'd commented on this little gem, but hmm I hadn't.

    Well, thanks for doign it now. :)

    I love how you started off with all the elements forbidden to the Jedi, and how they all feature in Obi-Wan's love for Siri and her love for him. And it's all the more sad, because obviously it has to be a secret.

    Yep, every single thing they felt for one another was forbidden to them. :(

    a tearjerker, but a beautiful viggie.

    Thank you. :)
     
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