Beyond - Legends Here Today, Where Tomorrow? -OC, eventually Ben and others- (Dear Diary '09) ~Entry 9: 5/31/09~

Title: Here Today, Where Tomorrow?
Author: mavjade
Timeline: Starts about 40 years ABY
Characters: OC- Randa but eventually Ben and Luke will be mentioned frequently.
Notes: For the [link=http://boards.theforce.net/fan_fiction_resource/b10304/29588737/p1/?59]Dear Diary 2009 Challenge[/link]
This character was first introduced in my story [link=http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28807180/p1/?2]The Old Man and the Boy[/link] which will eventually become a vignette series.

I bombed at this Challenge last year but now that I'm out of school, hopefully I'll have a lot more time! I'm trying something a little different so I hope it works!

If you would like a PM when I update let me know and I'd be glad to send you one!

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[u]Entry # 1:[/u]
[b]Subject:[/b] Leaving!
[b]Location:[/b] What has been my home


I hate how everyone looks at me, as though there is something wrong with me. I'm so glad I'm leaving.

I guess since I'm posting this on the Holonet I should tell you about myself before launching into a big rant, not that I think anyone will read this but you never know!

The name is Randa, I'm 13 standard galactic years old and I'm an orphan or at least I was until a few days ago. Technically I guess I still am, I'm not being adopted or anything, I'm going to some special school. Apparently they just found me and decided I was right to go there. I kind of wonder if Madam Madree (the head of this orphanage) is just sending me away since I cause so much fuss. Not that I really do, I stay out of the way and keep to myself but the others don't like me and blame me for things all the time. I'm always being punished for things I didn't do.

"No dinner for you Randa. No fun for you Randa. Maybe we should have left you with your father, I bet he would take care of this problem." Most of the time I just end up setting in my room by myself while the other kids get to do fun things. I've even been blamed for things while I was in punishment and had no way out.

My mother died when I was very young, I never knew her, but I do dream about her a lot, at least I think it is her seeing as I've never even seen a picture. I lived with my father until about three years ago when I was taken away from him which was fine with me. I'd rather stay here for the rest of my life then live one more minute with him, and that is saying quite a lot since I can't stand it here. He gave me this scar on my face which scares all the other kids and I hate him for it. I could have been pretty, like I imagine my mother was but he made me ugly and I'm sure I always will be.

Well, I guess that isn't entirely true. I do have one friend, Balia, who I will miss a lot. She is the only care taker who is nice to me and isn't afraid of me. She tells me that I am special and that I will realize why someday and that all of these people here will realize it too. I don't know what she means by that, but it always makes me feel better. I don't want to leave her here, they treat her badly too but she says she likes that she can help some of us who have been abandoned.

I'm a little nervous to be leaving even though I'm excited. I know nothing about where I'm going or who I'm going with. Madam Madree wouldn't tell me anything and Balia said they didn't tell her anything but she assures me they would not let me go anywhere that wasn't safe.

I think anywhere would be better than here.


[b]Status:[/b] Randa is happy she is leaving this place!
[b]Mood:[/b] Bittersweet

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[i][u]4 Comments[/u][/i]

[b]Correllia_Girl[/b] wrote:
Hi Randa! I found this in just a random search and wanted to tell you that I hop>

 

Wow, this is really cool!! I bet I know where Randa's going

And I love the comments at the end! Very nice touch

Please put me on the PM list!!

 

Like Randa's voice and the format is cool with the comments at the end

I'd like PMs please.

Best of luck with the diary

 

I've already finished through Entry 3 so hopefully I'll stay ahead and you all won't have to worry about a long time between updates! *knocks on wood*


NYCitygurl:
Wow, this is really cool!!
Thanks!

I bet I know where Randa's going
Do you now?? No, you are probably right! My muse wasn't in the misdirection mood when I wrote this, but give her time!

And I love the comments at the end! Very nice touch
Thank you! I thought it would be an interesting mode of story telling, though it is that hardest part!


Jade_eyes:
Like Randa's voice and the format is cool with the comments at the end
Thanks! I wanted to do something different and thought comments would be fun!

I'd like PMs please.
Sure thing!

Best of luck with the diary
Thanks! I think I've got it this year! Last year I picked things that were really hard for me to write. I had no idea how hard writing from an inanimate objects POV would be. And the other one was based on something that had been done in a RPG and the guy who ran it kept telling me not to mess it up and it made me nervous! But this year I've picked something I can jump around and write random entries so I think it will be much eaiser. That and I don't have school any more!

 

Looks like you're off to an excellent start!

 

awesome diary mav. gotta admit that's a really well thought out OC, and it feels very real. awesome job.

loved the comments at the end, they were a very nice formatting touch. keep me updated with this, would you?

:snoopy

 

I've gotten five entries of this finished, but I'm only planning on updating the minimum two times a month at this time... at least until I've gotten far enough ahead that I know I'm not going to run out of things to write about!

VaderLVR64: Looks like you're off to an excellent start!
Thanks! Hopefully I'll do better than last year, which shouldn't be too hard!

Trimaj: awesome diary mav. gotta admit that's a really well thought out OC, and it feels very real. awesome job.
Thanks so much, Trimaj! This is the most fully formed OC I've ever written, I have a great deal of information about her and am learning more every day! I'm glad she feel real.

loved the comments at the end, they were a very nice formatting touch.
Thanks! That is the hardest part of this journal... responding like several different people and still making it interesting and part of the story!

keep me updated with this, would you?
I'd be glad to! Thanks for reading!



[u]Entry # 2[/u]

[b]Subject:[/b] WOW!
[b]Location:[/b] Space

A normal looking human man with short brown hair wearing brown robes showed up to take me to my new school, I was surprised that they sent someone to get me. I figured Balia would take me to the space port and then I would be on my own until I got there.

He seemed pretty nice, well to me at least, he didn't stare at the scar on my face or make any comment about it. Even most adults I know gasp when they first see me, he just had a blank look on his face. He didn't really show any emotion at all and it was kinda creepy. In fact, the only time I saw emotion from him before we left was when he asked for my bags and I told him I didn't have any. He smiled at me but the look he gave Madam Madree was scary, he looked like he was going yell at her.

We didn't have our own clothes at the orphanage. They were all washed together and then given out everyday. Sometimes I would end up with clothes way to big and sometimes way to small, luckily today they were only slightly too big. I was surprised they didn't make me give them back before I left.

The hardest part of leaving was when Balia hugged me, something she wasn't allowed to do very much, and whispered in my ear, "Never forget, you are special and everyone will see that someday."

I promised her that I would make her proud and I would prove it to her and to everyone. I tried not to cry, I didn't want Madam Madree to think I would miss the place, but I couldn't help a few tears that escaped.

After we got away from the grounds the man stopped, look at me and smiled, "I am Jedi Knight Lyric Daveen and I am your escort to the Jedi Academy on Ossus."

I didn't know what a Jedi was, but I assumed I was going to be one since the name of the school had the same word in it. He led me to the space port, past all sorts of space ships that were so much fun to look at. Some were big and shiny and some were small, old and looked like the wouldn't roll much less fly.

We finally arrived at a almost new looking ship that wasn't big but it wasn't small either, I don't know much about ships so I don't know what to call it. When we walked in I was completely shocked. It looked so much different than anything I had ever seen, there were so many buttons and lights I wondered if he knew how to work it all.

"Is this your first time going off planet?" he asked me. He must have noticed my mouth hanging open.

"Yes sir" I whispered.

He held out his hand to me, "Well then you must come to the cockpit with me. We really aren't supposed to do this, but I think you should be able to see on your first flight."

I took his hand and followed him to the front of the ship. I thought there were a lot of buttons and lights in the back, but up here there were hundreds. I wanted to push one but I didn't want to get in trouble before I even got to school, so I sat on my hands.

He pushed a bunch of buttons and then looked at me with a big smile on his face.

"You ready," he asked me.

"Y>

 

funnyboy wrote:
You're gonna be a Jedi? That is so astral! The Jedi have really cool powers and can do all kinds of strange things. I always wished I could be a Jedi but nope nothing special about me! I still love watching a ship go into hyperspace even after seeing it hundreds of times. And don't worry if you don't understand it, a lot of beings don't. They use it but they don't know how it works! ;-)

Loved it!

 

Loved Randa's sense of wonder and anticipation

The comments at the end have a really "buddy-ish" feel.

 

Randa's so cute!! I think she'll be okay. I can't wait until she gets to the academy!

 

awesome job mav. you made me tear up a bit at the beginning and that basically never happens.

loved her sense of wonder, and you the little bit of fear that went along with it. it's amazing how things that can be wonderous can also inspire fear as well. fire's a pretty good example of that, i think.

looking forward to more, and am definitely enjoying the comments.

:snoopy

 

VaderLVR64: Thanks! I'm glad you liked the comments, I worry about them the most!

Jade_eyes: Thanks girl! Randa has lead a very sheltered life so everything in life is an adventure to her! I'm glad you like the comments, I'm trying to use them to further the story or to learn more about her but it is harder than I thought it would be!

NYCitygurl: Thanks, Nat! I'm glad you like Randa! She gets to the academy pretty soon and it should be a whole new adventure for her!

Trimaj: Thanks! Sorry for making you tear up! I'm glad you like her wonder mixed with fear. I think someone who has lead a life like hers, she is going to have a lot of fears (I don't blame her) but she wants to learn the ways of the galaxy so she has a lot of wonder as well. You are right about fire... that is a perfect example! More right now!


[u]Entry # 3[/u]

[b]Subject:[/b] Landing
[b]Location:[/b] Jedi Academy

Lyric told me a little bit more about the Jedi and what they could do on the way. He seemed shocked that I had never heard of the Jedi or this Force thing and he got the same 'no emotion' look on his face when I told him that. I'm not sure what that is about but I don't think he is angry with me cause I can't help that I don't know these things.

I can't believe I'm at a school to learn how to do all the stuff he talked about. I think they found the wrong girl cause I'm nothing special and I can't do any of the things he told me about. I didn't even believe that he could do it. He said he wasn't supposed to really show me anything but he showed me his weapon, a lightsaber I think he said it was. At first I didn't think it looked like any weapon I have seen, but when he held it out and a green light jumped out the only thing I could say was "wow".

He assured me that if I work hard that I could have one some day and I would be able to do all the things he talked about, even though it doesn't seem like it now. I hope he is right.

Coming back to normal speed, I think he called it real space? was just as cool as hyperspace. Watching new stars and planets appear that looking completely different was so astral, I could get used to flying in space, though landing was kinda scary.

When we landed on the planet the first thing I saw was huge trees and plants everywhere. I had lived in a city all my life with very little plants and this was completely different. The buildings that were there looked like the just came from the ground, like the planet had grew them herself. It was also a lot warmer, but that is something I like. I was always cold at the orphanage.

As we left the ship I saw a man standing pretty close watching us. It made me nervous but Lyric didn't seem like it was a problem so I just followed him.

"Master Skywalker, " Lyric said to the strange man as he bowed.

"Knight Daveen," the strange man bowed back.

"May I present Randa Vight." As Lyric was introducing me I didn't know what to do so I just followed what he did and bowed at the man.

He smiled at me with a warm and caring smile, which is something I had only ever seen on Balia's face . Normally when people smile at me it looks mean or scared because of my scar, but not this man. I felt like I could trust him.

"It is nice to meet you, Randa," he said to me still smiling. "I am Luke Skywalker, the head of this Academy."

He then took me to my room, that I share with three other females. On our way he told me more about this school and what they did, what kind of classes I would be taking. He told me that he will meet with me tomorrow and tell me more, but for tonight I would just rest and unpack.

He introduced me to the other girls and then left. They seem pretty nice, but I don't really know. I'm too tired to do anything but sleep so I think I'll go to bed and write more tomorrow.



[b]Status:[/b] Randa is laying in her new bed for the first time
[b]Mood:[/b] Tired

[i][u]4 Comments[/i][/u]

[b]funnyboy[/b] wrote:
No way! You must be the luckiest girl in the galaxy! You actually talked to Luke Skywalker! That is>

 

Very fine update. Lyric sounds like he'll help Randa a lot learn the ropes. Luke would make anyone feel at home. Looking forward to more.

 

loved it mav. the more you post with this character the more indepth and layered it becomes.

luke's definitely one of those people that can be trusted, and it's very fitting that she got that vibe from him upon first meeting. hope that the girls that she is bunking with are nice.

looking forward to more mav. again, loved the comments.

and don't worry about making me tear up, means you're doing something right.

:snoopy

 

Aww!! Cute that she didn't know who Luke is Glad she's gotten settled in. Can't wait for the next post!!

 

Jade_eyes: Lyric is a good guy, unfortunately he won't be around much anymore... he has other duties. That is part of what I love about Luke, that you feel comfortable around him right away. THanks, girl!

Trimaj: Thanks, Tri! I'm hoping she stays that way. The last thing I want to do is write a Mary Sue... I'm very paranoid about that! Luke does have that kind of personality and that is a big part of what I love about him. Thanks for reading!

Nat: Thanks! I was hoping it would seem plausible that she wouldn't know Luke, she's lead a very sheltered life. More right now!


[u]Entry # 4[/u]

[b]Subject:[/b] 1st day
[b]Location:[/b] A room I don't know what to call

Today was more fun than I've had in a very long time. It was a lot more fun than I had at school in the orphanage.

I have some classes like I should have had there, galactic history, math and science but then I also have other classes like meditation, and basics of the Force. The others in my class were pretty close to the same age but there were some that were older and some that were younger than me. Master Skywalker told me they put us where we needed to be, not where others our age were, but the really young students have their own class.

I actually ended up in a higher math class than most beings my age, I've always liked math and been pretty good at it. I think it will be harder here than it was at the orphanage but I like it that way. But my favorite class was meditation. It was kinda like daydreaming but in a class and you are supposed to be doing that. You close your eyes and listen to what the teacher is telling you to think about. You let your mind go where it wants to go on its own, and my mind goes some strange places.

Master Skywalker was really nice, he took me to his office after morning meal and told me what classes I was taking an what they would be like. He then took me around the entire place showing me all the classrooms, training rooms, archives, he introduced me to a bunch of different Knights and Masters (I think I'm starting to get what to call everyone) that will be teaching me, but I don't remember all of their names.

He also told me that he has a son really close to my age and that he might be in some of my classes. I don't know if he was or not, I'm not very good with names and I couldn't remember what Master Skywalker said his was in all the names he told me. Oh, well I guess I'll figure it out sometime.

I got to know the girls in my room a little better, they are pretty nice, I just hope they are being nice because they are nice and not because they have been told to be. One of the girls, Xrexa is in most of my classes and is pretty new here too, she just got here a few months ago. I hope we can be friends, I've never really had any.

Well, I guess I should work on my classwork now, I don't want to get behind. I'll post more later!

[b]Status:[/b] Randa should be working on classwork.
[b]Mood:[/b] Happy

[i][u]5 Comments:[/i][/u]

[b]funnyboy[/b] wrote:
So you don't get to play with lightsabers and make people say and do things you want them to do? Aww... :( That's no fun.

. . . . [b]Randa27[/b] wrote:
. . . . It was only my first day so I don't really know what we will do, but I don't really like the idea of making people do things they don't wanna do. Do Jedi do that?

. . . . . . . [b]Corellia_Girl[/b] wrote:
. . . . . . . I don't really know seeing as I'm not a Jedi but I don't think it works exactly like that. I don't believe a Jedi would do something completely against someone's will.

[b]Corellia_Girl[/b] wrote:
Sounds like you had a great first day, but I do have one thing to ask... you like math? Who like that! :-p Meditation sounds fun though!
-C_G

. . . . [b]Randa27[/b] wrote:
. . . . I think I like math because I'm good at it, well better than anything else anyway. Yeah, meditation was a blast, I hope we keep getting to do that. We imagined being on a beach which I've never been to before so I don't know exactly what they are like>

 

Randa's good at math... oooh, I was totally math challenged in school LOL... liked science though, particularly astronomy. She also likes meditation... does that put her in the minority there Glad she's found a pal already... she seems an open warm sort that others would take to.

 

Aww, that's cute!! I totally empathize with the forgetting names thin I hope she makes friends and hangs out with Ben!!

Nice job

 

Jade_eyes: LOL! I was pretty challenged at math too... maybe that's why I made her good at it! Meditation can be fun... that's my favorite part of my yoga class! She is pretty warm but unfortunately she's not made very many friends to this point in her life, but of course the Jedi are different!
Thanks for reading, girl!


Nat: Thanks! Yeah, I can't remember names to save my life. I'm lucky I can remember my own name some days!
In the story this OC comes from she marries Ben so she has to meet him eventually!
Thanks for reading!

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[u]Entry # 5[/u]

[b]Subject:[/b] Something fun and a strange dream
[b]Location:[/b] My bed

Sorry it's been a few weeks since I've posted anything here, I've been really busy.

I've gotten the hang of getting to my classes and even knowing all my teachers. I still don't know all the others in my classes, I tend not to talk much in 'real life'. It seems like I can talk to you all here on the holonet, a bunch of beings I don't know, but I can't talk to people here unless they talk to me first. Xrexa (my roommate) is still pretty nice to me but we really aren't into the same kind of things. She likes to hang out with other beings and I would prefer to be in the archives looking something up. It's alright, just being nice to me is a change from what I was used to, so I'll take what I can get.

Meditation is still my favorite class and I seem to be pretty good at it. Today, Master Solusar even asked if I would like to help him with the younger students in my free time. I couldn't believe it.. I haven't been here that long. I don't know why he wants me, but I told him I would. What was I going to say, no? Ha, I don't think so. He told me it would help him out and help me learn even more.

I don't know what I'll be doing, maybe just watching over them to make sure none of them run away while they are working, but I love little kids so it should be fun!

I had a strange dream last night, Balia was here, in my room, sitting on the edge of my bed. She reached over and moved the hair out of my face like she always did (I like it in my face, it covers up my scar and people don't seem to stare at me when they can't see it as well) then she kissed my forehead and said the same thing she always told me, "Never forget, you are special."

It was nice to see her again, even if it was a dream and I swear I could feel her sitting on my bed and her hand brushing my head. But that wasn't the thing that was really weird, dreams seem real sometimes. What was really weird was her... she looked like herself but not. She was, well, kinda blue. If she were another species that might not be weird but Balia is human like me and we shouldn't be blue.

Oh well, it was just a dream. A nice dream.

[b]Status:[/b] Randa is thinking about her dream.
[b]Mood:[/b] accomplished

[i][u] 4 Comments:[/i][/u]

[b]balancelife[/b] wrote:
Hi, I've just read your journal and I had to comment with this entry. Perhaps your dream is trying to tell you something, maybe it isn't a dream at all?

. . . . [b]Randa27[/b] wrote:
. . . . Hi! I don't know about that but it did make me feel good! :) It was nice to see Balia, I wish I had a holo of her.

[b]Corellia_Girl[/b] wrote:
Congratulations on being asked to help with the young students, that should be fun as long as you enjoy kids. :-) Your dream sounds nice, but blue?? Like a solid Twi'lek blue? That must have been strange!
-C_G
. . . . [b]Randa27[/b] wrote:
. . . . No, it wasn't a solid blue, more like a glowing blue. I could see her usual skin, but with a glow. It was strange, but nice. It made me feel good! >

 

Randa likes to do the researching/scholarly thing and it's paying off, it's fantastic to be asked already to help the younger students Balia sounds like a wonderful person... a great person to remember in dreams.

 

Aww, that's really sweet! I'm glad Kam asked her to help out; that should be fun for her

But I have a bad feeling about the dream. Glowing blue? I have a feeling that she's dead, and that was a goodbye

 

OOPS. I forgot to ask to be put on the PM list for this. So could you pretty please do that??

Now I won't miss a post.

 

So this is a little later than my planned posting schedule (but still alright within the challenge), but my new job is wearing me out! It should calm down here pretty soon as I'm about to be off orientation and start a real schedule so I hope to get back on my posting schedule of the 1st and 15th... or at least close!

Jade_eyes: Randa likes to do the researching/scholarly thing and it's paying off, it's fantastic to be asked already to help the younger students
She is very scholarly. She is very smart but feels like she has a lot to make up to get where the others are, but she also has a passion that the others don't necessarily have which was why she was asked. (It's really hard to convey those things when you are writing first person POV of a very modest person. )

Balia sounds like a wonderful person... a great person to remember in dreams.
She is a great person and really the only person Randa had a real relationship with so she can't be forgotten!
Thanks for reading J_e!


Nat: Aww, that's really sweet! I'm glad Kam asked her to help out; that should be fun for her
Thanks! It hopefully will be fun for her... but seeing as how I haven't written very far into it I can't say for sure!

But I have a bad feeling about the dream. Glowing blue? I have a feeling that she's dead, and that was a goodbye
Maybe...
Thanks for reading, Nat!


VaderLVR64: OOPS. I forgot to ask to be put on the PM list for this. So could you pretty please do that??
Now I won't miss a post.

No problem! I'd be glad to put you on the PM list!
Thanks so much for reading!!




[u]Entry Six[/u]

[b]Subject:[/b] Missing Balia
[b]Location:[/b] my bed

I talked to the girls I'm living with about my dream that had Balia in it. They seem to think it wasn't a dream at all, that it was something the Force was giving me. Why would the Force do that? I don't know that much about the Force as it is so I don't really know but I would think if it was going to show me something it would be the future or something like that.

Well what ever it was, I liked it and I wouldn't mind having the dream again. I miss Balia and in a really weird way I miss the orphanage. I don't miss the way I was treated, people here, mostly, are much nicer but I miss my planet and my room, my bed, but mostly I miss Balia. She was always so sweet to me and talked to me, usually about things I didn't understand but her voice was so kind, I almost felt like she was the mother I never knew, and now she's gone from my life too. Some nights when I'm laying in my bed and its dark, I cry because I miss her, I try not to cry, I hate crying but I can't help it. The more I try not to the harder I do cry and I'm really afraid I'm going to wake my roommates and then they'll probably think I need to go room with the babies.

I got to go to my first class to help Master Solusar today. It was a lot of fun to play with the little ones. I sat down in the floor and they all piled on top of me like I was a big toy. They all laughed, I laughed, even Master Solusar thought it was funny how excited they were. Once we actually got started things were pretty much like my meditation classes, but a little more simple. The younglings listened really well, which surprised me. At the orphanage the ones who were that age didn't listen to a thing anyone said, especially someone my age.

I didn't do much to help this time since I didn't really know what was going on, but I still loved being there and I hope I'll get to do more next time.

I thought about talking to Master Solusar about my dream but I decided not to. It's not that I don't think he'll help me, I just don't want him to think I'm like the little ones and really needed. Maybe I will later on... if it happens again.


[b] Status:[/b] Randa is missing her old home.
[b]Mood:[/b] Sad

[u][i] 4 Comments:[/u][/i]

[b]balancelide[/b] wrote:
I think your roommates are right. The Force sometimes gives you the things you need and ma>

 

Interesting... I bet Randa never thought she'd miss her old home, but now she's able to remember the good points about it while still enjoying everything she's experiencing in the moment Loved how well she's doing with the younglings They took to her right off which says a lot about her sweetness level LOL On a total tangent, congrats on the new job and finishing orientation. I just transitioned into the totally live part of my medical transcribing and I love it... !!!!!!! Huggles!!!! I guess you won't be doing the MMM this time darn it That "Fourth Time's the Charm" was delicious!!!

 

Glad she's enjoying her time on Ossus, even thuogh she misses her old home. And i think she should ask Kam too, though I think her roommates are right and teh answer will upset her

Great entry!! I loved the little kids piling on her