That sucks @Master_Lok

 

I kind of knew it was coming. The upside is the department will be handled by the outsourcing company I worked for prior. So there’s a good possibility the outsourcing company will rehire me for this site.

 

Good luck

 

Thanks. The silver lining is the outsourcing company which took over our department is my former employer, so there’s a strong possibility I will be rehired to work for this firm.

 

I'd say my life is going okay minus the pandemic and the usual factors, but I cannot help but feel a compulsion to lash out in anger right now. Hard to control the tremor in my arm

 

Anxiety is strange. I suffer from it a lot, but it’s usually about useless crap. Getting a lot sue to finals now, which is a different feeling than being afraid that one day I might break a bone. This is one of the first times I have really gotten bad anxiety due to an actual real thing and not something I just mad up in my mind

 

Does the election have you anxious @Jedi Knight Fett ? I know I've felt that way on some level pretty much constantly the last two months. Did you post enough threads to knock the "Biden Beats Trump" - The 2020 General Election Presidential Thread off the front page? It does feel good to have the election behind us. But it doesn't feel like it's done yet for me. I'm not liking that this isn't wrapped up. I just wish the political landscape was a little more sure 7 days after the election.

 

Hello former election thread people.

 

So I am having a hell of an anxious morning. Woke up to a bunch of texts about my mom having to go to the ER for chest pains last night. Luckily her EKG and chest xray were fine, and they think it might have just been muscle spasms.

My issue is, it triggered me bigtime. My dad had a heart attack 7 years ago that almost killed him. My uncle had a heart attack earlier this year that did kill him.

So yeah... I took my last sick day as a mental health day, which my boss was very supportive of. I love her.

But I don't have any short term anxiety meds like benzos to calm me down. So I'm not quite sure what to do.

 

This might be a naff suggestion, but meditation can take the edge off general anxiety, if you have the time and discipline. I struggle with doing it for long periods, but it can be effective.

Also, I know you have a brother, and he must be going through something similar - talking to him if he's available should stop you feeling so alone.

 

I have a cannabis card but have yet to be able to put it to use. My local dispensary has long lines I can't stand in because of my back... And the just CBD stuff does nothing for me.

I think my dad has some Xanax at their house. May ask to borrow one if this keeps up.

Yes my brother was up all night worrying about this because he is staying with my parents so he knew what was going on. I just woke up to a string of text messages about it. So at least I wasn't up worrying all night... But yeah my brother is gonna be asleep for a while since he was up all night. Same for my mom.

 

Found my old ativan bottle and still had a few pills, so I took one of those. Hopefully that helps. Gonna play some video games now...

 

Hope the video games help you relax too.

 

Yeah I am feeling both helping. My mom is awake now and still in pain so I am gonna go see her.

 

She had a nap but is still in pain.

 

@solojones Hope mom, you and your family are okay. I am sorry mom is in pain and you are having to deal with this now.

And hey! Company loyalty right? Nope.

No job after December 4th.

Ye thinking out loud ramble on:

Of the 13-14 members of this department there are only four open jobs and I do not qualify for any of them. So I reached out to the Director of Recruiting at this outsourcing company to ask about my previous position (both sites are in limbo). He said something about possibly February for the site I loved working at. One of the staff I worked with there said they are working from home until April. Full time employment is required for benefits.



Will be reapplying to Apple again early next week. If anyone knows how to be a wonderful or cranky customer it's me.

Also, pondering returning to school to continue chipping away at my Bachelors Degree (which honestly is a crappy program but I am 15 classes away from graduating and have a 4.0 GPA.) So if I maintain that GPA and take at least two courses a semester, the university will pay for my last 25-30 credits. I am about 5-6 classes away from that, it's a great scholarship.

Plus, care taking my mom whom I adore.

It's a lot, and I am grateful mom and I are hanging in.

/Ramble off

I know I say this a lot, but I am very grateful for this forum. Seeing the support for each other is an awesome thing and if I help someone in the way that you have helped me (The laughs are huge), I would be delighted.

Obviously, I haven't read through the thread (only this last page), but I truly hope everyone is okay and in a good place.

 

@Master_Lok for you back.

Good to hear about your academics. You're doing better grade-wise than me.

I'm sorry to hear about your job, wish I could say something more helpful. Hopefully your mom is okay and that your degree can take you places that you want to go.

 

So sorry about the job Master Lok.

My mom seems to be ok..her heart tests were fine. But she has pain from probably muscle strains.

 

Yeah she has been doing that but I think she might need a muscle relaxer too because she is still getting spasms.