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Saga - PT Seven Fatal Flaws (Obi-Wan/Siri Oneshot for OTP Challenge #21)

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  1. devilinthedetails

    devilinthedetails Force Ghost star 5

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    Title: Seven Fatal Flaws

    Author: devilinthedetails

    Characters: Siri Tachi; Obi-Wan Kenobi; Anakin Skywalker.

    Genre: Romance; Friendship; Drama.

    Timeline: Saga-PT.

    Summary: According to ancient Jedi teaching, there are Seven Fatal Flaws, and Obi-Wan makes Siri engage in them all.

    Author's Note: Written for OTP Challenge #21, which is to incorporate one or more of the seven deadly sins into the story. I have chosen to incorporate them all and weave a story around them all.

    Seven Fatal Flaws

    In ancient Jedi lore--teachings first recorded on crumbling parchments now carefully stored in climate-controlled cases in the Archives under the austere eyes of Madame Nu and now typed in pixels for any Jedi to view and study on their datapads--there were said to be Seven Fatal Flaws. Flaws that could rot a Jedi from within, corrupting a Jedi from a selfless servant of others to a selfish being devoted only to pursuing personal pleasure regardless of the cost to others. Tainting a noble figure of the Light into a vile monster of the Dark.

    Siri had been made to memorize the Seven Fatal Flaws when she was a youngling in the creche. She had been urged to meditate on them and to be wary of their danger. To be on guard for their insidious influence within herself. She knew they were wrong--that they could destroy her from within--and that she should be vigilant against them.

    Yet, somehow, they managed to slip through her defenses when she was with Obi-Wan. When she was with Obi-Wan, who was much more than just a friend or a rival to her, she found herself committing every Fatal Flaw forbidden and warned against in Jedi lore. Even more strangely, even though that kept happening to her when she was with him, even though he continually drew lapses from her that showed her weaknesses and unsuitability for Jedi life, she didn’t hate him. Couldn’t hate him.

    Although, oddly, hate wasn’t considered a Fatal Flaw according to timeless Jedi tradition. Neither for that matter was love. The Seven Fatal Flaws illuminated in Jedi teaching were pride, greed, lust, envy, gluttony, wrath, and sloth. And, she, Siri Tachi, had committed them all without, in her own estimation, falling to the Dark Side.

    Pride

    “I’m sorry,” she said, her words tasting as bitter as the black caf--unsweetened by milk or sugar--she had ordered from the greasy spoon Coruscanti diner where she and Obi-Wan had claimed a booth amid the early morning onslaught of breakfast seekers. Apologies did not come naturally to her, but he would be aware of that. Would recognize what she was forcing herself to choke out on her behalf. Had better acknowledge that if he didn’t want a mug of caf thrown in his face. “For all the times I was too proud to admit you were right.”

    “I’m sorry, too.” His tone was smug, and his blue gaze flashed with mischief, alerting her that he was about to say something irritating and far from gracious. “For all the times you were too proud to admit I was right.”

    “You pompous oaf.” Siri shook her head, managing to resist the temptation to hurl her hot caf at him. “That’s not how you accept an apology. You’re supposed to say you forgive me, and that you’re sorry for all the times you were too proud to admit that I was right. Apologies should be reciprocal so as not to be awkward.”

    “Oh, very well. I accept your apology, and I’m truly sorry for all the times I was too proud to admit you were right.” He arched an eyebrow across the table at her. “Was that good enough for you?”

    “Hmm.” Siri stroked her chin. “No, I think you should also apologize for forcing me to teach you some manners.”

    “Siri the Blunt teaching me manners?” Obi-Wan’s soft chuckle drew a crooked smile from Siri. “That’ll never happen.”

    “It just did,” she retorted, feeling as happy and alive as she only could when she was bantering with Obi-Wan or arguing some minor point with no real relevance to anyone with him. Just savoring their moment together sipping caf in one of a million Coruscanti diners.

    Greed

    “Is it greedy to want to be with one person for the rest of your life?” Siri asked Obi-Wan as they sat side-by-side, legs crossed in a Temple meditation chamber. He was her favorite person to meditate with, because he filled her with a special peace she could find with nobody else. To her, he was a light and a serenity among the Jedi. Unique among them. Not that she planned to build his pride by telling him that.

    Nor did she include in her question the fact that the person she wanted to be with for the rest of her life was him. Had been him since she was a teenager and would be him until the day she died. If he did understand that without her having to speak it, reading what was written in the secret diary of her heart and mind, she wasn’t too blame for that. Or so she told herself when shame and her conscience pricked at her for tempting him as she was tempted herself. Tempted to fall. Tempted to surrender to the Seven Fatal Flaws that could undo a Jedi.

    “It’s attachment.” Obi-Wan made a clearing noise deep within his throat. “Attachment is the shadow of greed, Yoda says. So in a way it must be greed to want that. To need that.”

    Something husky in his tone was an admission to her. A confession that he wanted and needed her to be in the rest of his life as much as she wanted and needed him to be in the rest of hers.

    “We’ll be friends for the rest of our lives.” She stretched out her hand to him. She could offer him friendship forever even if offering anything else was forbidden to her by uncompromising Jedi precepts.

    “Friends for the rest of our lives,” he echoed, taking her fingers and squeezing them between his. The gentle squeeze a promise as much as the whispered words.

    Lust

    Sometimes Siri wasn’t sure whether what she felt for Obi-Wan was selfless love. Love that was prohibited by Jedi stricture, but still a noble, light emotion in its own right. Or whether it was something darker. Something more selfish and tainted by her personal desires. Desires of her flesh and not her soul.

    Lust. The desire to hold him close, pressing his body against hers, and never have to let him go. The desire to silence him with a kiss whenever he teased her. The desire to gaze into his lake blue eyes and never have to look away--to be allowed to drown there forever or until time itself ended.

    Lust or love, she decided. It made no difference. Both were off limits and out of line for a Jedi, and she was a Jedi, however flawed, to her core.She might feel temptation, but she would never succumb to it. She was too strong and too proud to crumble like that. The Seven Fatal Flaws would not be able to claim her soul no matter how steadily they besieged it.

    Envy

    Sometimes Siri envied the couples she saw out and about, living their lives without being aware of how she watched them with jealousy burning in her heart and eyes. Curled around each other in diner booths, feeding each other forkfuls of one another’s food and sharing slurps of blue milk shakes from the same straws. Holding hands as they strode down Coruscant’s eternally bustling pedways to prove they were very much not alone in the universe or the hustle of the Republic’s capital that could swallow anyone.

    Stealing kisses on park benches. Picnicking on blankets spread out over what precious, rare green spaces the city planet had managed to conserve and provide for the use of its citizens and visitors from all the farflung planets of the galaxy.

    Bouncing babies on their hips or struggling to control rambunctious, ever-curious toddlers. Sometimes arguing with their children or with each other. Sometimes arguing over trivial things and sometimes not so trivial things.

    Either way, Siri found herself envying them. Envying their simple and not-so-simple pleasures. Their trivial and not-so-trivial arguments. Their time spent together. Their families being built and changing with every passing moment. Their loves and their lusts. Their attachments to each other.

    All things she and Obi-Wan would never share. Would never be allowed to share. Had chosen not to share, and maybe that awareness of the choice they both had made was the most painful part of her loss. The most inconsolable factor in her grief. For how dare she mourn what she had chosen to give up? What nobody but herself had forced her to give up.

    Gluttony

    “I must be a glutton for punishment.” Siri squinted down at the brown and distinctly unappetizing concoction Obi-Wan referred to as a stew, regretting her impulsive decision to accept his invitation to dine with him and Anakin. Anakin, wisely, wasn’t eating his stew, so much as he was shifting it around his bowl with his spoon. “Eating anything you cook.”

    “I’m one of the best cooks in the Temple,” Obi-Wan informed her lofilty, and she mentally translated that into him being capable of heating a variety of meals in the tetrawave. Usually without causing a fire in the tetrawave.

    Anakin gave a disbelieving snort at this that quickly turned into a cough when Obi-Wan glared at him.

    “You one of the best cooks in the Temple?” Siri laughed for herself and for Anakin and for the blush that rose on Obi-Wan’s cheeks. “That must be one of the worst lies ever told in Jedi history.”

    Wrath

    “I’ll have to die before you do,” Siri murmured to Obi-Wan one day as they floated on the placid surface of the Temple lake. Staring up at the dome of azure sky studded with pearl-white clouds that arched over their heads. A sky so perfect and tranquil that it could only be artificial. It’s very perfection a betrayal of its sheer unnaturalness.

    “Why?” Obi-Wan’s question rippled over the water to her. “You’re younger than me.”

    “Yes.” Siri somehow found it easy to speak of death--her own and his--in this peaceful place where time seemed to stop. “But if you died first, I would be swallowed by rage. I would want revenge on whoever or whatever killed you. I would want to destroy whatever or whoever had been the death of you. I would become a monster. A monster you’d never want me to be. So I must die first and you must let me die first. It’s the only way to prevent me from becoming the most terrible sort of monster. A Jedi twisted by wrath into a creature of blood and vengeance.”

    “How do you know I wouldn’t become such a monster if you died?” Obi-Wan’s voice cracked before he reached the last word.

    “Because that isn’t who you are.” Tears stabbed like lightsabers at Siri’s eyes. “You don’t have it in you to become a monster.”

    And that was why she loved him. Why she could never have let him leave the Jedi to be with her. Because he was a Jedi through and through. A Jedi in his loyal heart and unwavering soul. Being a Jedi defined him, and so he could never give into his wrath. Could never become a monster the way she feared she might if he died first. If she had to deal with the pain of losing him. Of knowing that he no longer drew breath anywhere in the universe.

    Sloth

    “I just want to lay here.” Siri sprawled on a soft mat meant to cushion falls in a training dojo. Normally she had endless energy and a relentless drive to push herself. To never stop working and training. Today, though, all she wanted was to lounge around and do nothing that even resembled productivity. She wanted to be lazy and was discovering a strangely exhilarating, selfish freedom in that. There was a liberty to be found in abandon that could never be present in productivity. “I don’t want to do anything else. I want to be lazy and just be, Obi-Wan.”

    “You’re such a sloth.” Obi-Wan nudged at her with his booted foot, urging her to get up so they could engage in a practice bout. That practice bout had been the ostensible reason they had come to this training dojo together, hadn’t it?

    “I take that as a compliment.” She tilted her head and stuck her tongue out at him, not caring how undignified the gesture was, because she wasn’t worried about being dignified today. She was focused only on being entirely lazy. On being a sloth like Obi-Wan said. “Sloths are a furry species of tree-dwellers inhabiting the rainforests of many worlds.”

    “I know what sloths are, Siri.” Obi-Wan rolled his eyes at her.

    “Then you’ll know what a compliment you just gave me.” Siri grinned impishly up at Obi-Wan, spurred to taunt him further by his obvious exasperation. “They’re absolutely adorable animals.”

    “They’re also sluggards.” Obi-Wan shook his head in what seemed to be resigned despair at her unrepentant laziness. “Just like you.”

    Despite his chiding, dismissive remark, he lay down on the mat beside her, and they never got any lightsaber training done that morning.
     
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  2. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha 2 Truths 1 Lie Host star 8 VIP - Game Host

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    Wonderfully written, insightful pieces. The dialogue is wistful and snarky and honest by turns. The scenes you place them in are interesting too: a diner, a placid lake, and a training room.
     
  3. earlybird-obi-wan

    earlybird-obi-wan Force Ghost star 6

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    Great pieces and scenes. And Siri was gone before Obi-Wan. They were the best of friends together
     
  4. pronker

    pronker Jedi Grand Master star 4

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    Oh what a way to brighten a Sucky Saturday, Author, and now on the Day of Rest I can comment at leisure.

    Eeee, memories of Bruck's 'Oafy-Wan' taunt!

    So much said and unsaid in this to wrench my heart.

    The two of them would find discussing serious, serious subjects as easy as breathing.

    It's amazing that tender emotions sprout on a city planet, such a harsh, IMHO, place. You'd think they would discuss the advantages of the T-38202 blaster over the Z-9302-Q blaster.

    And Anakin makes his appearance, tee hee!

    Siri did not need to endure the agony of Order 66, its betrayal and slaughter, but I'll bet she would find a way through hook or crook to survive it. This is the gal who lived undercover as a pirate called Zora so she could do anything. I remember reading Watson's account of her fate and sitting there in shock ... :(

    And so it ends, a lovely fic, revealing them as relaxing in the appropriate Fatal Flaw. @};-
     
  5. Bel505

    Bel505 Jedi Master star 2

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    I adore this piece. It's so lovely.
     
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  6. devilinthedetails

    devilinthedetails Force Ghost star 5

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    @WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Thank you so much for reading and commenting!:)I've never written Obi-Wan/Siri fic, so I'm super happy that you found these pieces to be wonderfully written and insightful! I really wanted to show a range of moods so it is awesome to hear that you appreciated the wistfulness, snark, and honesty in the dialogue as I very much hoped to be able to highlight everything I love about Obi-Wan and Siri's relationship, especially the banter and the candor between them as well as that wistfulness that comes from the fact that they can't be together romantically. And I really wanted to make the places where they found themselves having these conversations as different as their dialogue in those spaces so I am so glad that the crowded diner, the placid lake, and the training room were all interesting to you! Thank you again for the kind words and for reading my first Obi-Wan/Siri story[face_love]

    @earlybird-obi-wan Thank you so much for reading and commenting!:) It's wonderful to hear that you thought these were some great pieces and scenes involving Obi-Wan and Siri. I really loved their friendship and how it blossomed into a brief romance in the Jedi Apprentice books, and her death brought tears to my eyes but I did love how Obi-Wan remained a true Jedi and didn't seek vengeance for her death. It really showed what kind of person he was and how pure his love for her ultimately was. How it couldn't be corrupted into revenge or anything dark like that=((

    @pronker Thank you so much for reading, and I'm glad to hear that I could brighten up your Saturday with this story!:)And I appreciate very much you carving time out of your Sunday to comment on this story!

    Bruck was so terrible, calling Obi-Wan Oafy-Wan, but I think Siri was too tempted to call Obi-Wan Oaf that she couldn't resist the urge always[face_laugh]

    You highlighted one of my favorite passages with something husky in Obi-Wan's voice, so yay for that![face_dancing]I've been trying really hard over my time as a writer to improve how much emotion and pain can be left unsaid (and how leaving it unsaid and only hinted at can sometimes be more likely to tug on the heartstrings) so it means so much to have you comment on that specifically.

    Yeah, I think the two of them have a special honesty that makes it easier for them to discuss serious matters.

    The extremely urban and artificial environment was definitely an interesting place to explore the development and evolution of something as natural and organic as love so I'm so happy that resonated with you in a compelling way.

    I couldn't resist having Anakin make a cheeky little appearance, haha. So glad his appearance was another fun highlight for you!

    Siri's death in the book was a shock to me and it made me cry legitimately. I think Watson was good at making me cry over deaths. I cried for Siri, for Tahl, and for Cerasi. The Jedi Apprentice books definitely get underrated in that way.

    And I couldn't resist having the story ending peacefully enough with the two of them enjoying the idleness of the final vice of sloth together, sort of showing the softer and less dangerous side to these "deadly sins." That perhaps stealing a moment of sloth here in there isn't always a wicked thing;)

    @Bel505 Thank you so much for reading and commenting!:)I'm so flattered that you adored this piece and found my first Obi-Wan/Siri fic lovely![face_dancing]
     
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  7. Mira_Jade

    Mira_Jade The Fanfic Manager With The Cape star 5 Staff Member Manager

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    This was a lovely character study - bittersweet and melancholic, but lovely most of all. But, aren't the best SiriWan fics? ;) [face_love]


    It's so interesting about love and hate not being on that list! [face_thinking] And it was very clever to change sin to flaw and have this be a tenet of Jedi philosophy, instead. It was a great idea to examine all the ways Siri suffered from these 'flaws' all without succumbing to the Dark Side. Because, who, of any of us, hasn't grappled with these emotions at times? It's the giving into them that constitutes the sin.

    Anyway, I think I started rambling there, but I just wanted to say, again, that this was a very thoughtful piece that I enjoyed all the more so for its structure to fit the challenge. =D=

    You've got their banter down! [face_laugh] [face_love]

    Aw! Just lovely - and very Siri. :p [face_love]

    =(( [face_love] Don't mind me, just over here sniffling for this beautiful, tragic couple . . .

    That's fair. :( Though, in a way, Obi-Wan and Siri made the only choice the could have made too honor their respective senses of duty, well . . . there has to be moments like this where the draw of a normal life and all of those normal little everyday blessings has to be quite strong.

    [face_laugh] I loved that you ended on such a light-hearted, fun section! This made me grin such a grin. :D


    Excellent work with this, again! This was a wonderful revisit to old friends in Siri and Obi-Wan, and a beautiful response to the challenge. [face_love] =D=
     
  8. amidalachick

    amidalachick Jedi Grand Master star 5

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    Wonderful response to the challenge, and such a great way to use the prompts! I really like the idea of the sins/flaws being incorporated as Jedi teachings.

    You have such a wide range of emotions in here as well, from the banter in "Pride", "Gluttony" and "Sloth" to the bittersweetness and introspection of "Greed", "Lust", "Envy", and "Wrath". I loved all these different little glimpses of both Siri and Obi-Wan, and their relationship to each other.

    This is such an Obi-Wan line, I could totally hear it! [face_laugh]

    I really loved this whole section, but this bit in particular really got to me and I really felt for Siri! And it's so true, no matter how big or small the choices we face are, there's always something given up and lost when we make those choices. You captured that in such a beautiful and poignant way with these lines.

    [face_love] A sweet, lovely, perfect way to end this piece!

    Wonderful work as always! =D=[:D]
     
  9. devilinthedetails

    devilinthedetails Force Ghost star 5

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    @Mira_Jade Thank you so much for reading and commenting on my first ever Siri/Obi-Wan story:) I really wanted this piece to be a tribute to the characters of Siri and Obi-Wan as well as the depth of their relationship so I'm so happy you found this to be a lovely character study. One of the things that appeals to me about the Siri and Obi-Wan romance is that there is that bittersweet and melancholic aspect to it since they both choose to give up their love to remain in service to the Jedi Order and the galaxy, but at the same time there is that affection, intimacy, and friendship that endures between them and can't really be denied. So I really wanted to try to capture all those different elements in this Siri/Obi-Wan fic.

    I admit that I've always found it interesting how hate doesn't appear on the list of Deadly Sins (but somehow things like gluttony do, which is hard for people like me who have a sweet tooth and an attraction to junk food[face_laugh]) and since I wanted to try to adopt the list to the Jedi Order, I figured that Siri would definitely find it interesting that love isn't on the list of the Jedi's Seven Fatal Flaws. Along with hate, which could probably be seen as the most easy way to fall to the Dark Side and as the trait most often associated with the Sith. So, it's definitely something to muse over that neither love nor hate made the cut on the Jedi list.

    I just couldn't resist the alliteration of Fatal Flaws, and somehow that phrasing sounded very Jedi so I'm so glad that you found it clever and that it was well-integrated as a tenet of Jedi philosophy.

    I definitely did want a central idea and theme of this piece to be Siri's ongoing struggle with these Fatal Flaws without ever succumbing to the Dark Side, because I really believe that it is a big part of human nature and the human experience to grapple with these sort of emotions so having these emotions and wrestling with them doesn't inherently make someone evil or doomed to fall to the Dark Side. It just makes them human. It is the consistent trend of giving into temptations to do evil and wrong things that makes someone fall to the Dark Side as you say. So I really wanted this story to acknowledge Siri's humanity and show how she could have her flaws and temptations but still be a good person and Jedi who never fell to the Dark Side.

    One of my favorite thing about Obi-Wan and Siri's relationship is how they banter with and tease each other, so I just couldn't help but include some of that here[face_laugh]So nice to know it gave you a chuckle!

    I wanted to capture that mushiness of Siri wanting to be with Obi-Wan for the rest of her life with that sort of tough side she has where she won't openly say that it's him she wants to be with forever. But at the same time, she sense that he knows her well enough to understand what she is really saying to him but she doesn't have to blame herself for that, because she didn't explicitly admit her feelings to him. So it is all very Siri, and I'm so happy to hear that you found it lovely as well[face_love]

    There is definitely a tragic element to Siri and Obi-Wan's romance because they have such great chemistry and love for each other but they can't be together and that did tug at my heartstrings as I wrote this piece=((They are indeed a beautiful and tragic couple.

    Yeah, I can definitely understand how Siri at times would envy the regular couples she sees who can live together and build their families, but at the same time, there is that core truth that Obi-Wan and Siri wouldn't really be themselves (and the people each fell in love with) if they didn't remain Jedi and fulfill their duties as Jedi. So, in a way, there is this tension between the temptation and envy of a normal life, and the fulfilling duty and commitment of being a Jedi, which is made even more complicated by the fact that the Jedi also functions as a family of sorts for both Obi-Wan and Siri. So to walk away from the Jedi for them would also be walking away from part of their family. So it can all be very confusing and heartbreaking.

    I really did want to end this OTP challenge on a lighter note that would show the sense of fun and teasing that I like to imagine defining a lot of Obi-Wan and Siri's relationship so I'm so glad that final section was such a joy for you to read! It was so nice to be able to add some levity at the end of the story and hopefully end on a bit more upbeat tone.

    Thank you again for the kind words and for joining me as I revisited Siri, Obi-Wan, and their relationship![:D]

    @amidalachick As always, thank you so much for reading and commenting on my stories![:D]I'm so flattered that you found this to be a wonderful response to the challenge and a great way to use the prompts because I found the Seven Deadly Sins prompt to be super interesting and a magnificent jumpstart to my creativity.

    I really wanted to give the story a sense of added structure and offer Siri a chance to reflect on these flaws in relation to herself and Jedi philosophy so I focused on inventing a way for the Seven Deadly Sins to be repurposed as part of Jedi teaching under the framework of the Seven Fatal Flaws. It makes me super excited to see how that structure and decision resonated with my readers.

    I definitely got a chuckle out of that Obi-Wan line, and I'm so glad you did as well[face_laugh]Obi-Wan certainly knew how to bait Siri there!

    The passage you quoted was definitely a very poignant and heartbreaking one for me to write. I have been thinking about choice a lot lately, and I think you are right that one of the most challenging and painful things about choice is that whenever we make a choice, however big or small, we are giving something up. In essence, losing something. And in Siri and Obi-Wan's case, in choosing the Jedi, they are giving up the chance to be together and build their own family. That really is a big, life-defining choice, and a heart-wrenching one. I really wanted to do justice to the depth of Siri's emotions there, so it is good to hear that those lines really connected with you in such a powerful way.

    That being said, I really didn't want the whole piece to be heartbreaking or heavy, so I wanted to end on a lighter, sweeter note where Obi-Wan and Siri laze about and tease each other and just enjoy each other's presence. And I'm so glad that felt like the perfect way to end the story for you[face_dancing]

    Thank you again for reading and for the kind words!:)