Walk a Thousand Miles (Songfic, one post)--Tahiri two years after SbS *TAGGED*

All right, I know technically in the SW universe they use kilometers instead of miles, but just go with the song. The song is A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton.

I felt a little odd writing another thing based off of Anakin/Tahiri, since I already have a trilogy about them, but the song fit and I was inspired. And remember, this is my first songfic, so try not to throw too many rotten vegetables.

Oh, yeah...Disclaimer: Star Wars isn't mine, the song isn't mine....you know the drill.

Star by Star Spoilers, of course.

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Making my way downtown
Walking fast, faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way, making my way
Through the crowd

It's been two years, Anakin. Two years since that fateful day on Myrkr. I'm supposed to be meeting your family right now...to go to your memorial service. And instead I'm wandering the streets of Coruscant. I didn't go to the service last year...I couldn't...

I need to go this year. I've been unable to really let you go...I don't want to let you go.

I don't know where I am anymore. I haven't been paying attention to where I'm going. Does it even matter? Does anything really matter anymore? Without you there to hold me when I'm sad, to tell me it will be all right, is anything important? So the Yuuzhan Vong were fought off, so we regained Coruscant, so it's being rebuilt. So what? I lost myself when I lost you that day, Anakin.

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder...
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you tonight

There's a cantina off to my left. I decide to go in and have something to drink. Maybe it will calm me down enough to convince myself to go to the service. There's a moment of silence when I walk in the bar--everyone's looking at my Jedi robes. My lightsaber. Probably my bare feet. I'm not sure what they're thinking. I hear one of them say something about the scars on my forehead, and I hear my name whispered, but I ignore them. I don't want to be known for the things I did in the War after you died, Anakin. I don't want to be hated or loved for what I did during that time. I did it for you, and only for you. I fought the Yuuzhan Vong to try to make your death worth something. To try to make it worth something to me. So that maybe...maybe I would feel something again.

I've been trying to make the pain go away for so long, Anakin. I've tried blocking it out, and it doesn't work. Nothing works. I live in my memories...of you, of before all of this started.

It's always times like these
When I think of you and I wonder
If you ever think of me
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your precious memories

The bartender hands me a drink, and I stare into the glass, pointedly ignoring the mutters about Jedi around me. Pain wells up in my chest again, constricting my throat and making my eyes hurt from the tears I'm restraining.

And I remember...when I first met you, how quiet you were. I never stopped talking then, did I? You helped me, Anakin. You helped me so I wasn't lonely anymore. I had someone to talk to, to get into trouble with, to sneak around behind Master Skywalker's back with. The times you had to leave Yavin 4 to go visit your family I missed you horribly, but you always came back.

But now you won't come back. Ever. You're gone. Why, Anakin? Why did you leave me? You said you'd come back, and you didn't! You lied to me! Why?

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder...
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you tonight

The tears are coming now. You'd think that after two years, I would be out of tears. That I would be numb to the pain. That I would stop reliving that day in my dreams.

The bartender asks me if I'm okay, but I barely

 

Oh, wow, that was beautiful, Qwi! I'm nearly in tears.

*Jadis*

 

I usually don't read songfics, but this was beautiful! GREAT WORK!

 

I was just about over his death, and then you have to go and post this amazing fic!

That was so good! Don't ever stop writing! I mean that!

 

So sad and bitter sweet .

Great work

 

First I was feeling all warm and fuzzy from Fruity's vignette and then, now, oh. This was awesome, very heartfelt. You're right, the song does go with it.

Am

 

wow this is sooooo sad. Poor Tahiri.

 

Qwi... That was beautiful and emotional, and oh...

Great job! *goes off to have a good cry*

 

It's great!! Brings it all back for me. Why couldn't you have written Anakin's last scene in SbS? Amazing job as always, Qwi!

 

Qwi, that was beautiful! It brought tears to my eyes!

I've loved that song from the moment I heard the first few chords... your use of it as inspiration for this vignette... Absolutely breathtaking!

Great job!

 

o wow that was amazing...*cries*

 

Jadis- Thanks!

Jade-I'm glad you read it! Thank you!

jadesaber-Oops. Sorry. Thank you, I don't plan on stopping.

Pallas-Aww, thanks!

Am-Hehehe, Fruity's vignette and this really were opposites. Thanks for reading.

Jacy-I agree. Poor, poor Tahiri.

Mara-*hands her a tissue* Thanks!

Lonewolf-Thanks a lot!

Jade-Thank you so much!

Sticks-Thank you.

 

Wow, I was playing the song and reading your fanfic at the same time, and I must say, your writing is so beautiful! I have tears in my eyes now because Tahiri's anguish was portrayed so well! Awesome job!

 

Thanks, Stardust! I love that song, and everytime I heard it I wanted to write this...I'm glad you enjoyed it.

 

I think you could really have a great story if you took this fic, and told what happens next to Tahiri. You should think about it!

 

Awwww beauitifully written Xuxy! Yotu had me in tears *wipes them away* I agree with Woman, a whole story on this WOULD be really interesting!

 

Jade-That is an interesting idea; I'll think about it!

Luney-Awwww, thanks! (BTW, I love your sig! )

 

That was beautiful! And so sad... *sniffles*

 

Thanks, Becca.

 

Sad yet sweet!

 

Wow! That was so great!!!

 

*sniff* *sniff* that was SO sad...i hated how they killed anakin off...i mean he is one of the main characters, right?....sad, sweet, *sniffle* keep writing!

only one problem...it was jag/jaina and not kyp/jaina! j/k lol

-JSD

 

Jaggie_Jaya-Yeah... *sighs*

Leah-Thank you!

Jaina-Thanks a lot. And I'm still writing...

 

I know this is late in coming, but I want to thank everyone who nominated and/or voted for this on the Winter 2002 Fanfic Awards. It won best songfic, which was a shocker for me.