Saga Frozen Heart - H/L vignette from Leia's POV - just after ESB

Frozen Heart
A H/L vignette ? from Leia?s POV.
By Jedi-Lelila



Time Period: Just after ESB.

Summary: Leia?s reflections about her loss.

Disclaimer: I don?t own Star Wars. Those characters aren?t mine and I did write this fic for fun only.

I wrote this small viggie during one of my English classes. Please, don?t tell my teacher!!
I was inspired by a beautiful drawing I?ve seen on Tara?s site Han Solo and the Princess.

NOTE: I?d like to thank Solo_Fan for her beta work. Thanks a lot, my lady.





Han. Han is gone and I feel dead.
He?s not dead, just gone. At least that is what Calrissian said. A friend, indeed!! I think bitterly.

A man that called himself Han?s friend, and who has finally betrayed him ? betrayed all of us. He has handed us over to Vader and this bounty hunter, Boba Fett. Of course, he helped us to escape from Bespin, and to save Luke from this weather vane, but still, Han isn?t with us right now.
I understand he couldn?t disobey this monster?s orders. Nevertheless, I can?t help thinking that he is entirely responsible for what happened. Even if he didn?t have a choice.


Han is gone. My love, my soul, all I had and cherished once, is gone.
I have lost everything.
First Alderaan, then my father and my friends, and now Han - my life.
I have lost them all. I failed them all! I repeat to myself.


After Alderaan, I had never thought I would be able to love again. Then along came Han ? Han, my beloved scoundrel, my knight in shining armor. Han is the only man who has ever been able to make me smile or laugh even in the worst situations. He has never put me on a pedestal nor worshiped me, unlike most of the young Rebel soldiers. I?ve come to love him for it, because he has always refused to see me as a princess or a lady, but simply as a woman. At first I was angry with him for showing such a disrespect for my title and rank. Yet, the more he persisted, the more I enjoyed it. But I would have been damned then if I had told him this very thought. It was out of the question for me to feed his ego ? which was so big, I often wondered how he could pass through a door.

In spite of his being infuriating, Han has had ? and always will have ? a golden heart. When I needed someone to speak to, he was there. When I needed a shoulder to cry on, again, he was there. He has always found the right words to comfort me or to force me to go on and face whatever Fate had in store for me. It was as if he knew when I needed his reassuring presence. Sometimes I even wondered if he didn?t read my mind. He was always comforting me the way I needed, telling me the right words, or just holding me quietly.


I should have thanked him for it, before it was too late, before Bespin and the meeting with his treacherous so-called friend.

Thanks to him, I have learned how to be a woman, how to be myself. I felt alive with him, he made me feel beautiful. I had been able to bear suitors or senators who were interested in something other than myself. Contrary to what I had thought, I have been unable to resist Han Solo?s devilish charm. He certainly knew how attractive he was and how to use this power on women. During the past few years, I have desperately tried not to take the bait, but I have been unsuccessful. I took the bait and I fell into his trap. He has led me to his bed and then to nirvana, awakening parts of my body I never knew existed before, making me feel wonderfully alive.

He has taught me how to be selfish, how to be myself and to stop acting like the Ice Princess. Han has always been there for me, during difficult times or when I had weaknesses, especially the nightmares I have.

When I look back to each moment we were together, even all those arguments, I can?t see anything but love. We argued with each other continually, but there were looks that betrayed our feelings, hid

 

That is BEAUTIFUL!!! Wonderful viggie!

 

A reader already???

Thanks a lot, GreatOne

 

The best thing I can say, truly touching. It really puts you in that scene. I loved it!

 

BRAVO!!! Excellent job.

 

Well Done!

 

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, so beautiful! wonderful job!!!!! I almost cried!


A. Windsor

 

OMG.. beautriful!!!!
wonderfull!!!
DM

 

Thanks everyone for your wonderful feedback.

It's almost midnight in France and I'm too tired to reply individually tonight, but I'll try to do it tomorrow or later.

Anyway, thanks a lot for reading.
It means a lot to me!

 

Upping all my stories for X-Mas!!

Happy holidays to all of you!!

 

My heart is frozen alongside Han in that block of carbonite. And I know I shall never have it back until I have freed him.

Aww! Poor Leia!

That was a beautiful piece, jedi-lelia. I enjoyed it very much! You did so well with Leia's feelings, too!

Keep up the awesome work!

 

First of all, I'd like to thank you all for your wonderful feedback!
It meant a lot for me, especially in such a hard moment.

GreatOne: *hugs* Thanks a lot for reading, my friend.

Sara_Kenobi: Nice to see you.
It was touching? Thanks, I really did my best.

starwarsfan68: *hugs* MERCI!

Kab730: Thanks.

A-Windsor: You almost cried? But... I wanted you to ACTUALLY cry!!

DarthMasan: beautriful ????? Does it mean it's better than beautiful!!! *face hopeful*

Puggy: Nice to see you again my friend. *hugs*
You did so well with Leia's feelings. Thanks but I don't think it is to my credit. I was as depressed as Leia when I began writting this fic.


Again thanks for reading!!

JL

 

UPPIES !!!

 

That was amazingly written! You got Leia's feelings perfectly!

 

Han And Leia Forever!!! Loved it.

 

Jaina_and_Jag Thanks a lot. You got Leia's feelings perfectly!
I have to tell you that I was as depressed as Leia when I wrote this viggie. In a way, it helped a lot!

Jedi_Queen_Mx Thanks. I'm glad you loved it too.

 

I really liked this. A heartbreaking insight into Leia's feelings.


He has never put me on a pedestal nor worshiped me, unlike most of the young Rebel soldiers. I?ve come to love him for it, because he has always refused to see me as a princess or a lady, but simply as a woman.

Very nice!


Beautiful job!

 

Thanks for reading, Gina.

I'm glad you loved it.

~Lelila

 

I really liked this. It puts us in touch with Leia as a woman, not a rebel leader. We so often get to see the business side of her that this was a refreshing change.

BTW, the site "Solo and the Princess" is awesome too! Thanks for sharing the link.

 

I'm so happy you liked it, Reihla . Thanks for reading.
We so often get to see the business side of her that this was a refreshing change.
My thought exactly. In some fics I read, Leia seemed so in control during this ordeal, refusing to let herself feel, I wasn't agreed with that. That was one of the reason I wrote this fic. IMO Leia is really bossy only in public because she's a Princess and she can't be so emotive; but in private she's only a woman in love, who has just lost her loved one. That was what I tried to say in this viggie.

Thanks for sharing the link. Your welcome!


~Lelila

 

Upping this story.

Anyone else wants to read it and comment?

~Lelila

 

Here I am. Months late but still sobbing. My roomie thinks I have more issues than she already suspected. She said and I quote, "Why the hell are you crying over stupid Star Wars? It's not real you freak." In my head I was all 'IS SO!!!' but saying that would only add fuel to the fire. Thanx so much for this WONDERFUL FIC!!! ~Gabby

 

Wonderful Vignette!

EDIT: And if you still have the vignette written in french, I would love to read it

 

Wonderful story

I've often thought about what Leia must have been feeling & thinking during that time, I think you captured it perfectly.

 

Beautiful, just wonderful.
Great job.