Before - Legends To Forgive My Killer, To Forgive My Brother KOTOR'ish, Ulic/Cay Qel-Droma

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Title: To Forgive My Killer, To Forgive My Brother
Time: At the end of Tales of the Jedi: the Sith War
Summary: Comments of a slain Jedi
Rating: This is probably questionable, since the whole story centers around a violent death scene. Mods, if you think this is inappropriate, plz don't ban me. PM me and within a day, all of this will be replaced by a link to a version on either www.fanfiction.net or my personal site.
Notes: I haven't read any of the BfTS books, only a few comics, so I'll describe things the way I saw them. As Socrates once said, please forgive my ignorance. This is my first time attempting something in this era and this is based solely on The Sith War. If you look in my profile, you'll know that I'm usually a Beyond person. In other words, feel free to criticize.
Characters: Cay Qel-Droma, bits of Ulic
Genre: Angst?????

"Ulic, I love you! That's why I'm doing this!" I pleaded with my brother, hoping that I could bring him back. Now that I am dead, I cannot believe how foolish I arrogant was to think that I bring Ulic to the light once again. I guess I never wanted to admit that we could never again be children who never had any idea that their mother was a Jedi.

"Then you should have just left me alone!" My ears barely caught the enraged words from my brother's mouth, for I was still dazed over my lost arm, even though it was just a prosthetic. It was my final mistake, for my brother's turquoise saber literally seared my heart at the last word. The slash was swift and unexpected, and I was mostly freed of physical restraint before I hit the duracrete flooring of Ossus.

It didn't sink in that I was dead at my brother's hands until I found myself floating over my corpse. The cut must have been deep, for the warm, crimson blood gushed out of my nose like a river after my body hit the duracrete beneath me and it was impossible to differentiate between the pool of blood beneath my body and my incarnadine clothes.

Still locked in his cage of delusions and under the influence of Sith poison, Ulic knelt down on the solid surface and grabbed my hand as he vainly searched for any sign of life. He freed himself when the realization of his crimes had dawned upon him. He was unwilling to accept it, but the welcoming grip of death had already claimed me.

"Cay, my brother, what have I done?" My brother wept as he unsuccessfully cradled the shell that I had left behind. I'll tell you what you've done. You've just killed your own brother, your blood! I thought as my spirit merged with the Force. I wanted to shout at him, but there were limitations to a spectral form, especially when it was invisible to the sentient eye.

"CAAAAYYYYY!" My brother's desperate scream echoed throughout the planet. He rattled my limp body, as if to awaken me from my eternal slumber.

"Cay, Cay, forgive me!" My brother pleaded weakly as rare, Jedi tears streamed down his face. How could I do that? How could he ask me for such a thing? I guess he still does not know the full extent of what he has done to me. I tried to plead with the judges and the senators at his trial in order to lighten any sentence he might have received, but he batted me down. Then, when I became one with the Force, I found out that Ulic, along with that Aleema, were behind the deaths of Qrrl Toq, Dace Diath, and Shoanes Culu, three of our friends!

How could I forgive him? How could I forgive him in addition of what I had already done? I only named the most recent of favors. How could I forgive him after he killed countless people, including numerous Jedi? How could I forgive him for literally ripping my insides? How could I forgive my killer?

But Ulic is my brother and I have referred to him as that many times. Perhaps I could forgive my brother, since he now has not even the Force left. As a Jedi, I am supposed to be forgiving and I must not give up, but what he had done was too much

 

Wow. Just Wow. This is a good story! I know a little of Ulic Qel-Droma from KotOR, and I was glad to see something familiar.

 

Great work! I know diddly-squat about the era, so it's good to have something inform me. Wonderful job.

 

This is the author'sfirst account...
SabyneI always thought BfTS would be like all about him and Nomi and I got quite a surprise when I firsthit the link. THanks,I guess Ulic's more underrated than I thought.
VadersMistress: Glad you think this is something to lean on for info (as this, like allof my viggies, is not AU)

 

Wow! Great job!

Still locked in his cage of delusions and under the influence of Sith poison, Ulic knelt down on the solid surface and grabbed my hand as he vainly searched for any sign of life. He freed himself when the realization of his crimes hand dawned upon him that the welcoming grip of death had already claimed me.

 

VaderLVR Gah my bad! thanks btw I fixed that. Put this together impromptu in 2-3 hours time.

 

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Whoa. I haven't seen a TOTJ-era story in - well, forever. I love the Qel-Droma boys, and I think Cay's death is easily one of the most powerful scenes I've ever encountered. You handled it wonderfully well.

Still locked in his cage of delusions and under the influence of Sith poison, Ulic knelt down on the solid surface and grabbed my hand as he vainly searched for any sign of life. He freed himself when the realization of his crimes had dawned upon him. He was unwilling to accept it, but the welcoming grip of death had already claimed me.

I loved this passage . . . it's emotional, but still with the serious sort of voice that's so very Cay. Beautiful rendering of a character we don't hear enough about.

Great work!

Nem

 

Wow. Just Wow. This is a good story! I know a little of Ulic Qel-Droma from KotOR, and I was glad to see something familiar.

From KOTOR????Are you sure....???

As for you Sil GREAT JOB....
Wonderful Story...

 

Jedi_Nemesis: Thanks. I came to this section expecting lots of stories from the Sith era and I didn't find any.
SithLOrd_MAlak: Thank you. As for the KOTOR part, I don't know because I never play these video games.

 

Very nice! I just finished reading those comics so I found this to be quite enjoyable. As to SithLOrd_MAlak's question, the comics and the video game series are different. The events that take place in the Knights of the Old Republic comic take place about 40 years before the game. In the game there are several refferences to the events in the comic, mainly coming from Jolee Bindo when he talks about the war with Exar Kun.

 

Squall you are right...I just start reading the comic and i can see that there many differences...

 

Squall: Thanks for the info and glad you enjoyed it!
SithLOrd_MAlak: No comment

 

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HAdn't the chance to reply before though I did read it. There hadn't been much of the Old Republic and the Sith wars written as in the last couple of months. Like others what I learn of it comes more from reading fanfic and this gives me delightful insight.

Well, not delightful with the killing of a brother and all, but I enjoyed it greatly and feel for Cay's quandryover his brother.

 

Well I can't help that the death of Cay Qel-Droma was totally canon.

 

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Very interesting premise. I wish you'd post more.

 

That was really good I think VadersMistress already said this, but I don't know anything about the era either, so this was a great informer. Please write more ^.^

 

Since this is actually a scene from a comic written from Cay's perspective, I take it that you want me to write another from Nomi Sunrider's POV?

I know it's late, but *hugs all lurkers*
Oh, and it'd be nice if you delurk, if you're lurking. I'd like to hear some comments.