Beyond - Legends Dear Diary Challenge - 1/2 year - Where do I go next?

DD


I've been home a week now and for the first time I left my bedroom. Its been pretty easy with my refresher in the next room and Chrissy being so in my face. LOL. Yeah, I've laughed in the last day or so. Cam and Chrissy lay on my bed with me last night and we played 'Jedden', used to love this card game when mum and dad were alive and for the first time in years I laughed till I had tears in my eyes. Cam was so dramatic about losing but he was only doing it to make me laugh, I could tell. So today I got up and went down for breakfast, they were so pleased. I guess I was too. They know, my doctor knows and from what Cam tells me the Headmaster of school knows it now. At first I was horrified he knew, everyone knew but they both told me it was going to be ok. He said there was a 'meeting' with Trent's parents. STANG!! First I was scared then I decided I would love to have been a bug on the wall for that one, I hope they all gave him 'what for', he deserves it, I know that now.

I know so much more now, I was coerced, I was almost forced, I wasn't willing, I was humiliated and I was not in the wrong. If I'd only told someone earlier, I'd have known that earlier. Lesson learned I guess, I need to trust those who love me. I never realised how much they do, I do now.

I got back into my SIM today and it wasn't easy, my wrists are still sore and painful, but healing really well. I hope I won't have big scars, it's so embarrassing now, weirdly enough. I showed Chrissy the messages I got and she encouraged me to report them all, as she says they're abusive. She might be right, there's time. The SIM was good, it felt good to be in there and I wasn't trying to escape this time, I wasn't angry and full of self hatred. Chrissy caught me, said she watched on the outside screen and says I'm pretty good. Told her I topped the planet a while ago and she was shocked. It's a great hobby but I think its time I knuckled down and looked at my future. Can't be a good for nothing spoiled brat forever, can I?

 

Thank you @WarmNyota_SweetAyesha for continuing to read. And why @Anedon?

 

DD

I did a thing today. Never thought I could do it. I went to school, to collect my things, but I held my head high. Cam told me he'd 'spoken' to Trent, one on one. I don't even want to know what happened! He told Trent's parents what happened, everything. He says they were horrified. So I guess they will deal with their son. I collected my data pads and sport gear and no one said a thing to me, no one even really looked at me. I can't believe I had that courage, but Chrissy was right, it was always in me.

For the first time since mum and dad died, I wore my hair down. I didn't know it'd gotten so long, I'd not been taking notice for years, just braiding it up after washing it. I stood in front of the reflector and it was at my waist, its got a kind of curl in it, I think I like it. It's almost pretty, almost.

Followed Cam around for a couple days, learned a lot about the estate. I guess learning is about desire, if you want to learn, you will, if you don't, you won't. I am trying.

Topped the planet again on the SIMs, I feel alive when I'm flying, or at least pretending to fly. Maybe one day I could try it for real? It's a thought.

Well back to the studies, Chrissy is home schooling me again, and there is so much to learn. I do wonder though with my studies of Galactic Sentient Beings, are Wookie's, essentially naked?

 

I am betting she did at some point

Learning something you believed was your fault, wasn't is a huge burden to have lifted. As fast as it crushed her, it's lifting now she knows she has love and support.

Thank you both

 

DD

Cam said something over dinner tonight that caught me off guard. He said he'd looked into the Akrian Defense Corp. I was shocked. He asked if I was interested in flying for real, using the skills I'd been gaining in the SIM for real. I felt something I've not felt for years and years, since before mum and dad died. I was excited and agreed to go to an office tomorrow to ask some questions, to find out if this is really an option. I am so excited, I don't think I will sleep tonight!! Maybe this is my thing? Maybe this is where I take back my life, and I find my way.

I just stood in front of the reflector and smiled, genuinely smiled. This is me, this is who I am. I'm not a farmer, I'm not a factory manager or a process manager. Hell I can't even balance the books. I think I am a pilot, I hope I am a pilot. For the first time in my life I want something so bad I can taste it, and I want it badly enough to work for it. Whatever it takes.

Imagine, defending my home, being one of those we all admire for bravery and courage. Two things I have learned in the last months, two things I think I always had but I let someone convince me I didn't have at all. I am brave, I do have courage, and this is who I am.

So excited for tomorrow. Its time for me to be who I am.

 

DD

Today was amazing. I sat an exam and did a physical exam thingy then they put me in a SIM. I got so excited when I saw it was almost the same model as mine, and I knew then if I kept my cool I'd be able to do this, and I DID!! Didn't Ace it but pretty damn close. The examiner was really impressed and said he felt the paper work was only a formality. I have to wait 7 days, and I think it will be the longest 7 days of my life!

Cam has been awesome, like a big brother. We talked lots today on the trip to and from the centre. He told me he wanted to punch Trent out for sending me into such a dark place to fast. Said that the creep could well learn a lesson. I told him I was also to blame for letting it happen and not knowing better. He said I was wrong, said I should not have to live in defense all the time, not have worry who or what might take advantage of me at any given time. Then told me he knew the Galaxy is not like that I'd have to be careful all the time. Said I should do some self defense classes but I think if I get into the Akrian Defense Corp, they will give me some physical instruction. I know if I get in, it will be tough, but I can do it, I know it. Flying is all I want to do, I know that now, I just need to get in. Decided if I fail this time, I'm gonna keep trying till I do get in.

If I get in I want to rub my acceptance notice in Trent's ugly cocky arrogant face, I want to show him and his 'hangers on' that they were all wrong. I'm so much better than them! They thought they'd beaten me, but with help I fought back. I took back my pride and my courage and am now standing tall and proud.

 

DD

I have never been so excited and nervous in my entire life. I could puke!! I got my acceptance today! It arrived by droid courier and I didn't know but at the physical they took my measurements, I have a freaking uniform! Its dark grey with royal blue trim, matching jacket and pants! I get to wear a tank top or t shirt under it and on the right chest the jacket reads

Akrian Flight Defense
Cadet - Adalia Tehanis

OMG Its real, this is so real!! I put it on right away and it fits perfectly and goes well with the boots they sent. I start next week, and I can commute as its only 30 minutes in a speeder away! This is the best day of my life.

THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!!

On another note, the school called, they want to see me and Chrissy in the Principals office to discuss the 'incident'. That's what Trent's parents are calling it now apparently. I didn't want to go till Cam just laughed and said 'Wear your new Uniform, that'll throw them.' He's right, so I am going, and I am going to strut through the whole school and show every one of those creeps how much better and stronger I am than them.

Today has changed my life, I just know it, I can feel it!! From today I am not a kid, I am not the daughter of dead Rebel parents, I am a pilot!. And things are only going to get better from here. I don't need a man, I don't need anything, I'm gonna be the best damn fighter pilot Akrian has ever seen.

 

I am assuming its like here, not everyone can be a pilot and not everyone has the abilities. She doesn't know it yet, but there is a reason she is good.

 

Thanks for reading guys

 

DD

Well that was fun! I mean it really was. Chrissy and I attended the Principals office, me at 17 (nearly 18) in my full Akrian Defense Uniform, name and all. Trent was there with his mother, who was a really nice lady. She made him appologise to me! Never expected that, and it won't fix what he and the others did to me, but it's a start. But the best bit was the look on his face. I had my hair in a ponytail, snappy uniform and an new attitude, and I think even the principal was more than a little surprised and asked a few questions.

I walked out during lunch break, Chrissy beside me and my head held high as I could hear the whispers, I could hear the comments and most we of disbelief. I loved it, I'm being honest, it was the best feeling ever.

I start in 4 days, and I cannot wait to start my new life.

The old Adalia is dead, she's gone. In four days the new Adalia is born. The one who won't need a boyfriend, don't ever plan on having one ever again. I don't need anyone to be the best. And I plan to be the best I can be, watch out Galaxy, here I come! With Chrissy and Cam only I can do this. Why? Because it's my time, cause this is me, and if the galaxy doesn't like it, I don't need them!