Beyond - Legends Whatever Tomorrow Brings (Dear Diary Challenge 2008) -- Completed 12/16

Oh that was good! I don't like those doctors, but at least they knew enough to call in the Jedi for help. It's great to see the Jedi being more than just warriors.

 

That's an impressing story! I like how you put the characters, because they are so believable. Not some superheroes, but common people. You made your own characters very lovable and fitting in the SW-Universe

I really like Marrin. She is so strong and human, I hope Ti'Ana will be okay

 

Hey

This was great, a really good job!

Thanks for the PM!

PHGS Weyr

 

OK, the last time I was up into a diary this bad was Broken Promises and Keeper of Memories. Ceilean, you're in awesome company don't you know. That's why I have to bump!! Hugs!!

 

My thoughts exactly.

Ooh, glad you like Alaris. I'm hoping I portray her resembling the typical grandmother/mother, wanting to help everyone and who's always there when you need her.

Thanks for reading! I honestly think that maybe Jedi healing techniques could be better than the the average drugs.

Mostly we see Jedi only as warriors and "keepers of the peace" and I thought it would be nice to finally see a Healer, other than Cilghal.

Thanks, Cem! Glad you stopped by.

Thanks! And you're very welcome for the PM.

Aaaw! Thanks for the bump!

 

A month or so after my fourteenth birthday, my mother sat down with her hands folded in her lap. The expression on her face was a mixture between worry and happiness and the way she began playing with her hands, I knew that there was something bothering her.

It had become something of a tradition to sit together once a week and talk about everything and anything that had happened in our lives. At the time I thought my life was miserable. School, friends and having a lot of problems with boys, I suppose I was a very difficult teenager.

But I do think my parents managed quite well.

I remember my father growing rather nervous when my mother cleared her throat a few times before looking us straight in the face. I think she wanted to laugh and cry at the same time when she exclaimed ? in a very loud voice ? that she was pregnant.

My father jumped up and gathered her up into his strong arms, twirling her around the room. Just like in the holo movies with happy ends. And me? Well, I just sat there, stunned.

Instead of being happy for my parents, the only thoughts going through my head were about having to make room for a baby. A crying, nagging, screaming little thing would most definitely take my place.

I was horrified.

?Marrim, sweetheart?? I heard my mother?s angelic voice, almost only a whisper. I guess I was staring into space, a blank expression on my chubby face. She always got overly worried when I did that.

I smiled and got to my feet, hugging my mother and ? embarrassing as it is today ? pretended to be happy for her. I smiled and squealed with her and I squelched out a few tears.

I left my parents alone for the rest of the evening, laying on my bed in my room, listening to music. I heard them laugh through my closed door, heard a few hushed whispers and I knew they were kissing, no doubt.

They were having a baby. Another child. Another burden.

I turned up the volume to block out the cheerfulness from the other room.

All this went through my head as I took a walk away from the hospital where Ti?ana was still sleeping. Alaris and I had a very long talk about treatment methods she, as a Jedi, could offer.

We decided to start the next day and knowing Ti?ana was now in good hands, I needed some air.

I thought back to the day she was born. It had taken me months, watching as my mother?s belly grew bigger and bigger, to finally except my parents? happiness and ? only to a degree? being happy myself.

I remember, one day at school, instead of listening to our silly teacher ramble on about different alien cultures, I wrote a pro and con list of a sibling.

Today I believe I was afraid of change. Having a baby means a great deal of change and it was something I wasn?t willing to accept at the time.
I was at home with a few friends when my father stormed in and had a frantic look on his face. He searched the entire apartment, mumbling something about looking for a bag.

That?s when it clicked. I finally understood that this bundle of life was coming to live with us; I could teach it so many wonderful and great things; I could help raise this child if I wanted to. I could be the big sister I had always wanted.

My mother had packed a bag a few days before and my father and I hurried to the hospital just in time. I waited outside in the hall, pacing back and forth and suddenly very much ashamed at my behavior over the past months.

It took a long time until my Dad finally came to get me, a beaming grin on his unshaven face.

?It?s a girl.? He whispered as he showed me the way to my mother?s hospital room.

The baby was wrapped up in a pink blanket and my mother held the little girl to her chest, smiling and talking to her in a low voice.

In all my life it was the first time I had seen my parents so very happy. And I wanted to be a part of it.

I greeted my little sister with a soft stroke across her rosy cheek and swore that I would always be there for her, no matter what.


I stopped my walk on a bridge, overlooking a small river with clear

 

Sweet flashback. Yay!!! Asya's his sister, not his girl friend!! Yay!!! Devon and Marrim can now officially become a couple SQUEE!

 

Great update. I'm happy to see my suspicion was right and she was his sister.

Thanks for the PM, can't wait for more.

 

What a lovely flashback.

I can totally understand Marrim's mixed feelings about having a sibling.

Glad to see Asya is just a sister.

Great update

 

Nicely woven work between Mirrim as a teen and the current time. I loved her reflections on change, paretning and having a sibling. Veyr well written.

Ah, so she's his sister! YAY! Loved this line:

Her long blond hair was braided into to ponytails at the sides of her head and she wore a short black dress; did she want to look like a school girl?

All I could picture was some sauser eyed anime girl!

Can't wait to see the love heat up now!

 

Thank you for the PM

I really liked the chapter, I can totally understand Marrims feelings toward a sibling. I had exactly the same feelings, wehn I was younger.

And I'm so glad Asya is just his sister It was nice to know more about her. So she is 14 or so years older than Ti?

 

Great Job Cei! Thanks for the pm!

 

Yep. Kind of was thinking in that direction. So I'm guessing you might like this next update.

Yeah, didn't feel right having Asya and Devon be together. Although it had crossed my mind at one point.

I think having a sibling at that age is hard but it pays off in the end. At least with me and my little brother it did.

Thank you! Having a younger brother and now being a Mom, I hoped I could sort of portray my own feelings on the matter.

Yes, about fourteen years. I thought the age difference would be somewhat of a challenge.

Thanks! And you're very welcome!

 

Devon walked me home sometime past two in the morning. I am fully capable of walking on my own but I suppose his male protectiveness kicked in and so he insisted, ignoring my reassurances that everything would be alright.

We didn?t talk much on the way back and I found myself thinking back to my little sister. I wondered, in her current state, if she dreamed and if yes, what her dreams were about. I wondered if the fantasies she had during the day came true while she was sleeping. And I wondered if she felt pain, while she lay on the infirmary bed, staring into space with that strange look in her eyes.

So many questions pounded against the inside of my skull, questions I had no answers to. But that?s where I hoped Alaris would step in and show me a beacon of light with her Force abilities. But I still had an entire night and half a morning until our next meeting. I knew I wouldn?t get any sleep.

Sighing I rubbed my temples and stifled a yawn, smiling towards Devon as he gave me a worried look, ?Just tired.? I said, ?I haven?t been sleeping well.?

Devon nodded, digging his hands even deeper into his pants pockets. ?This must be very hard for you.?

I looked away from his blue stare, focusing my gaze on something ? anything ? else around me. I knew I was on the verge of breaking out in tears but I clamped down and swallowed. ?Uh?yeah.?

The apartment building loomed up in front of us, only another few hundred meters. So many lights were on; the small windows looked like ornaments on a tree.

Devon suddenly stopped and cleared his throat, ?Listen. If you need me? I mean?? He sighed, ?You don?t have to go through this alone, Marrim. I?m here for you, whatever you need.?

I didn?t know what to say. I was literally speechless.

Having gone through a war and losing so many people you loved, it got harder to open up to someone new. There?s always this fear in the back of your head that this new person would be taken away from you, as well.

I was honestly a tiny bit afraid of this new found friendship.

?Thank you.? I whispered.

Devon shrugged, the muscles beneath his dark jacket flexing under the artificial lights, ?It?s the least I can do.?

For a moment we stood in front of the building?s entrance in silence. I took a deep, quivering breath as I noticed that I was suddenly feeling utterly nervous. I had the urge to roll my eyes but I closed them instead, clearing my throat, ?Thanks for walking me home, Devon.? I said in a low voice, smiling pleasantly.

Devon nodded, ?You?re very welcome.?

?Would you come to the clinic with me later on? Around ten?? I suddenly blurted and I have no idea why. He obviously cared for Ti?ana and I didn?t feel like it was the right thing to do, asking him to see her that way. But I didn?t want to go alone. I really didn?t want to go alone.

His blue eyes widened just slightly but he nodded, ?Of course.?

I tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear, leaned over to plant a small kiss on his cheek, ?Thanks again.? I whispered.

Surprisingly he gathered me up into his arms and hugged me. I was so very grateful for his embrace and, having not wanted to acknowledge it until that very moment, I needed his embrace. Just being held for a little while made me feel better, even if only a little.

?I should get back inside.? I said, my voice just a faint whisper. Oh goodness, I was so nervous.

?Alright.? He cleared his throat, ?I?ll be here to pick you up.? His finger caressed my cheek lightly and I tried not to freeze up. The last time anyone had touched my face this way was lifetimes ago.

I wanted to say something, to tell him that I really needed to go inside but no words came out of my mouth. Instead I gazed up into those beautiful light blue eyes as he inched closer and closer and suddenly he kissed me.

A soft kiss, that made a tingle run down my spine. I closed my eyes, immersing myself in this feeling I hadn?t felt in years. It was completely and utterly wonderful.

He backed away, his hand still caressing my cheek as he gazed down at m

 

Oh, Devon is so cool! I love how tender he is and supportive.

?Would you come to the clinic with me later on? Around ten?? I suddenly blurted and I have no idea why. He obviously cared for Ti?ana and I didn?t feel like it was the right thing to do, asking him to see her that way. But I didn?t want to go alone. I really didn?t want to go alone.

This really captures how alone and scared she feels. I liked how you wrote it.

I can't see what Alaris will do!

 

Very nice update. Devon is just what she needs. No one is an island. Thanks for the PM. =)

 

Woohoo!!! Marrim's musings about Ti'ana's experiences and reservations about getting close to someone after losing so many are very realistic. Devon's definitely a keeper.

 

Great Job!

This is so sweet!

Thanks for the PM!

PHGS Weye

 

?You don?t have to go through this alone, Marrim. I?m here for you, whatever you need.?

I love the budding romance



It's wonderful to see Devon standing so stoically beside Marrim when she needs him the most.

Great update

 

I finally caught up with this...

And it's wonderful , the best thing you ever wrote imo...and I'm saying this without any Kyp in it^^
The characters are so real and deep.
pu me on the pm list

 

Thanks so much for reading, everyone!

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I felt vulnerable suddenly. I felt as if I were completely alone, as if the universe around me had suddenly shut off, leaving only nothingness and silence.

All I heard was my thumping heartbeat, my own breathing.

Alaris stood before me, a reassuring smile on her wrinkled face but her loving grace did not touch me. All I knew at that moment was that I was utterly and completely afraid.

I was afraid of having to let Ti?ana go; I was afraid that after Alaris started the treatment, Ti?ana would never again be the same beautiful, fun and precious little girl I remembered. The thought that Ti?ana might even die during treatment crossed my mind as well and I felt suddenly paralyzed with fear.

Alaris gently touched my arm, ?There is no need to worry, child.? She said, her voice soothing and reassuring, ?Her vitals will be monitored and before we begin, I will explain to you in detail what it is I will be doing.?

I was hoping to feel relieved, to feel something other than this lurking terror but I couldn?t. Instead I smiled, blinking back tears, ?Thank you.?

Devon?s large hand held mine tight and I leaned back into his body, steadying myself. ?Everything will be fine, Marrim.? He whispered into my ear, his warm breath touching my neck, ?Don?t worry.?

?Do you trust the Jedi?? I asked him as Alaris moved back to Ti?ana?s bed. The young Doctor, who had so far treated my little sister, walked in from the entrance across the room, nodding towards me and starting up a conversation with Alaris.

?Yes. If there?s anyone in this galaxy worth trusting it would be the Jedi.?

I held on to his hand tighter, ?I?m glad you?re here, Devon.? I breathed closing my eyes for just a moment.

The Doctor and the Jedi Healer nodded our way and Alaris began to explain the procedure. I didn?t catch as much as I wanted to, my mind zooming out as I walked closer to Ti?ana?s bed. Her eyes were closed, her breathing normal, as far as I could tell. She seemed paler than usual, the freckles along her cheeks now completely visible.

Ti?ana always nagged about her freckles.

I touched Ti?ana?s hand as Alaris said something about probing her mind with the Force.
Inch by inch she would try and find what was wrong with my sister and possibly heal her right then and there. But she told me not to get my hopes up.

And she pressed the matter that there was also a chance none of this would work.

The Doctor came up beside Alaris and smiled, ?I?ll be monitoring her throughout the entire process.? He paused as if wanting to give me a moment to catch my breath, ?I?ll be giving her a mild sedative. I think it would be easier on all of us if she were comfortably sleeping.?

I nodded, the strength I showed on my face not reaching my inside. Truth be told, I was terrified.

Alaris moved closer towards Ti?ana as the Doctor administered the sedative, softly stroking away a few strands of her dark hair. I watched her quietly, my heart pumping beneath my chest; I could feel it in my throat.

Alaris bent over her small form, closing her blue eyes, as she began whispering words in a low voice, in a language I had never heard before.

The language was plainly beautiful, like an old melody, its words soothing the very essence of ones soul. It reminded me of a lost song, an ancient song intended for the ill to ease their pain.

I closed my eyes, listening to those beautiful words, wondering what they meant.

And that?s when I noticed Devon had stiffened. All the while his hand had stroked my back and when he suddenly stopped I looked up with a questioning gaze.

?I?ve heard those words before.? He whispered for only me to hear, ?It?s an old prayer. My Grandmother taught it to me when I was little.?

?Can you translate?? I asked as Alaris sat down on Ti?ana?s bed, her long fingers touching her temples. She closed her eyes and the Doctor began punching buttons on the bedside machine. And that?s when we waited.

Somewhere in the back of my mind I had thought that we

 

Besides being lovable and warm, it seems Devon has a complicated history

Glad Alaris was and is able to do some good, but it won't be easy or quick. I just hope Ti'ana can come back more or less herself.

Marrim's emotions are very real and natural.

 

Hmmm, very interesting! I like what you wrote about Alaris, made me think of casting a spell:

The language was plainly beautiful, like an old melody, its words soothing the very essence of ones soul. It reminded me of a lost song, an ancient song intended for the ill to ease their pain.

I closed my eyes, listening to those beautiful words, wondering what they meant.

And then Devon goes on with the whole mysterious ancestor thing, made me wonder if you're talking Dorthomir or Huruun Kal....or somewhere altogether different.

I thought Ti'ana had a head injury? It would have done it's damage at once, it wouldn't be progressive...unless she has a brain tumor or something.

 

I'm glad to hear T'ianna will be healed but I'm concerned about the irreversible damage



I hope whatever it is, Mirram will be able to deal with it.

Interesting peek into Devon's ancestors.

Great update

 

I'm not sure how I missed this story but I LOVE it! I am so hooked. Your OC's are awesome. Can't wait to see where Devon is taking her.

Great job!