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Before - Legends I, Obi-Wan - Diary Challenge Entry - updated 5/27

Discussion in 'Fan Fiction- Before, Saga, and Beyond' started by VaderLVR64, Jan 3, 2009.

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  1. VaderLVR64

    VaderLVR64 Manager Emeritus star 8 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    Title: I, Obi-Wan
    Author: VaderLVR64
    Characters: Obi-Wan Kenobi



    Entry #1

    My name is Obi-Wan Kenobi.

    And I will never be a Jedi.

    I cannot say the words, so writing them down here is the closest I will come to admitting my failure. Even to myself. Every dream I held has now been turned into dust, every hope has been crushed into nothingness. I cannot imagine living a life outside the Temple walls, of being apart from those I consider my brothers and sisters, of being torn away from the only home I have ever known.

    But I must endure it even if I cannot imagine it. I must because there is no choice in the matter. That which cannot be changed must be endured.

    I had one last chance to get a Master, but he has refused me. I am not surprised, for I am well aware of my own shortcomings. I had hoped, but?

    I am not worthy to bear the name of Jedi. It was never meant to be. So now I am in Agri-Corps, my failure quite plain for all to see though I will not speak of it. I can?t. It hurts too much, which is only further proof that I am a failure, for a true Jedi would not feel pain over that which is the will of the Force.

    Now I am going to Bandomeer and there I will try to serve some purpose at least. I try to tell myself that our lives here can have some meaning, serve some larger purpose. I even try to believe it. I say the words that I cannot believe in my heart because that is my duty.

    It is the responsibility of a Jedi, even a failed one, to never question the will of the Force or the orders of the Council.

    So I will serve my time here and attempt to find joy in my service, putting aside my childish hopes for a life grander than the one I am assigned.

    I am Obi-Wan and I will never be a Jedi. Ever.
     
  2. earlybird-obi-wan

    earlybird-obi-wan Chosen One star 6

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    This is great a diary of Obi-Wan. Can you put me on your PM list:)
     
  3. NYCitygurl

    NYCitygurl Manager Emeritus star 9 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    Aww, poor Obi-Wan!! I feel so bad for him. I hope Qui-Gon comes to rescue him from boredom soon!!

    If you've got a PM list, please add me :)
     
  4. KELIA

    KELIA Manager Emeritus star 6 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    I am Obi-Wan and I will never be a Jedi. Ever.

    :_| :_| :_|

    I'm glad to see he is determined to make the best of his situation but :_| :_|

    I hope his time in the Agri-Corps will be short...[face_praying]

    Nice start to this. I'm looking forward to more

    =D= =D= =D= =D=

     
  5. Jaidyn_Knightfall

    Jaidyn_Knightfall Jedi Youngling star 2

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    Poor Obi-wan! Keep your chin up, hopefully things will get better...

    Please?[face_praying]


    This is very interesting. I'm looking forward to more!
     
  6. Gkilkenny

    Gkilkenny Jedi Grand Master star 4

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    It is heartbreaking for one with so much potential to end up in the Agri-Corps.
    After a life of training to be just that a Jedi.
    So sad.:_|

    Good start.=D=
     
  7. Corellian_Ale

    Corellian_Ale Manager Emeritus star 4 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    Oh no! Emo Obi-Wan! Looks very interesting...

    Can you keep me posted when you update?
     
  8. MeleanaKenobi

    MeleanaKenobi Jedi Youngling star 2

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    No sad Obi-Wan :_|
    very good Obi-Wan journal. Brought back memories of reading the book from way back. and I have the memory of a gold fish.
     
  9. dianethx

    dianethx Jedi Grand Master star 6

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    Poor kid. I liked how you showed him trying to do the right thing even though his heart was broken.

    Great job.
     
  10. CPL_Macja

    CPL_Macja Jedi Grand Master star 5

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    I love how this has started and am interested in where it is going...

    Add me to your PM list please
     
  11. jedidas3

    jedidas3 Jedi Youngling star 3

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    What an incredible first post! If you're keeping a PM list for this, please add me.
     
  12. azizah

    azizah Jedi Master star 1

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    Great post. I'm not usually a big fan of the diary format, but this one I will have to read. I love the title.
     
  13. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    Cool beginning. :D PMs please?

    :)
     
  14. VaderLVR64

    VaderLVR64 Manager Emeritus star 8 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    earlybird-obi-wan Sure! And thanks for reading.

    NYCitygurl Not sure RESCUE is the right word. :p

    KELIA Let us hope it will be short. :D

    Jaidyn_Knightfall Thanks!

    Gkilkenny Glad you like it.

    Corellian_Ale Emo Obi, it makes sense. [face_laugh]

    MeleanaKenobi I'm reading the series again myself. :D

    dianethx That's Obi-Wan. :(

    CPL_Macja Will do and thanks for reading. :D

    jedidas3 Sure! And thanks!

    azizah Title completely ripped off from I, Jedi! ;)

    Jade_eyes Sure. And thank you.








    [b]Entry #2[/b]

    Well I?ve made friends with a Hutt. All right, that?s an exaggeration. If by making friends I mean I got myself beat up by one, then yes, I?ve made friends. Actually, I [i]have[/i] made a friend of sorts, an Arconan named Si Treemba. He?s got a disconcerting way of referring to himself in the plural - something to do with their culture and mentality. I?m getting used to it.

    A fem named Clat?Ha was the one who patched me up after my encounter with Jemba, the cranky Hutt. Of course, I?ve never encountered a Hutt who [i]wasn?t[/i] cranky. Anyway, she hates Jemba, and with good reason, I admit.

    She was not the only one who looked after me. Qui-Gon Jinn was there too. He?s a Jedi. I had hoped he would train me. Not only did I fail spectacularly when I tried to impress him at the Temple, I don?t think I?ve made a much better impression now that I?m in Agri Corps.

    I thought, for just a moment, that he might have regretted his decision not to take me as his Padawan learner. But then he simply dismissed me out of hand, making it clear that I was not his responsibility. I suppose I should be grateful that he does not give me false hope.

    Somehow, I cannot find it in myself to be grateful.

    I must meditate on this fault.








     
  15. Jaidyn_Knightfall

    Jaidyn_Knightfall Jedi Youngling star 2

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    Right now, I'm torn between laughing and feeling bad for Obi-Wan.

    Well I?ve made friends with a Hutt. All right, that?s an exaggeration. If by making friends I mean I got myself beat up by one, then yes, I?ve made friends.

    Isn't that how we should all make friends?:p

    I loved the update. Can't wait for more!
     
  16. earlybird-obi-wan

    earlybird-obi-wan Chosen One star 6

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    Lovely update and waiting for more=D==D=
     
  17. CPL_Macja

    CPL_Macja Jedi Grand Master star 5

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    Ohhhh...an over anxious Obi-wan.

    I like it.

    "Something is happening... I want more. But I know I shouldn't"[face_devil]
     
  18. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    Delicate vivid blend of wistfulness and disappointment. [face_thinking] :D
     
  19. Corellian_Ale

    Corellian_Ale Manager Emeritus star 4 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    I must meditate on this fault.

    Well, at least he's learning how to put himself on the road to greatness!

    Bravo again MamaV!
     
  20. NYCitygurl

    NYCitygurl Manager Emeritus star 9 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    Awwww, poor boy!! And getting beat up by a Hutt sounds really un-fun.
     
  21. dianethx

    dianethx Jedi Grand Master star 6

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    Poor kid.

    I liked this line. Somehow, I cannot find it in myself to be grateful. :(
     
  22. hyperspace_police

    hyperspace_police Jedi Master star 4

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    Really like how you're capturing Obi here...

    Well done.

    =D=
     
  23. jedidas3

    jedidas3 Jedi Youngling star 3

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    Obi needs a hug! I volunteer! Great update.
     
  24. Gkilkenny

    Gkilkenny Jedi Grand Master star 4

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    So his weird sense of humour started when he was young.
    He sounds depressed.:(
     
  25. KELIA

    KELIA Manager Emeritus star 6 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    Jemba, the cranky Hutt

    [face_laugh] [face_laugh] [face_laugh] [face_laugh]

    Poor Obi, though. First he gets beat up and now he's thinking Qui not choosing him is his fault

    :_| :_| :_|

    Great update

    =D= =D= =D= =D=
     
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