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Story [Star Trek] My Family of the Soul. (DDC 2015) Complete: 12/03/15.

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  1. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    AN: Borrowing Myna Kryukov from the wonderful Mira_Jade
    With a great tease at the end there. ;)




    I was in the running with Miranda to be part of Captain Kryukov's special investigative task force. She was a Fleet commander but specialized in Intel and Negotiations. I was a communications specialist, and Miranda a psychological/sociocultural one. Either of us would be great picks for an internship.

    We didn't try to vie with one another for the posting.

    I was honored to be considered, but I had other priorities, things that were #1 on my list.

    ~!

    After the experience with Nero, her offer still stood. "Nyota," She told me, "It is even more crucial that commanders have around them persons that are beyond reproach." She told me.

    I gave a respectful nod. "This I well agree with and understand, Ma'am. However, I must decline. I have found my true vocation elsewhere."

    She smiled and reached across to clasp my hand. "Clear skies, to you, Lieutenant. I know you will succeed at whatever endeavor you pursue."

    Since the slot was still open, Miranda was selected.

    I sent her my sincere congratulations.

    She sent a "Thanks, gal! Keep in touch, please!" in reply.

    "Of course I will, Randi" I would have it no other way" I sent back.

    ~!

    I need hardly recount that I was put through serious emotional changes when I thought my love and I were going to diverge our life-paths, for good and all.

    When he returned to me, I was relieved and accepted his heartfelt tender explanation.

    I understood the holding aloof, and I did not doubt that he truly loved me. But the fact that he could have even considered a path separate from me, a dissolution of us. I did not question whether he'd had a qualm or several - but still ...

    On an intellectual level, I comprehended the validity of such a weighing. But something still pulled.

    So, I told him of my offer from Capt. Kryukov with no small amount of pleasure.
    "So you see you're not the only one who had more than one viable, fascinating option." I tossed.

    "Nyota ... that is not how I would phrase the conundrum ..." He began.

    "Ha! It was a conundrum only to you, not to anyone else. You let it become one. I, however, knew exactly where I wanted to be, from the get-go. Clear and unswerving decision matrix for me, let me tell you!"

    "For my part, I assumed we had settled this beforehand. I hardly thought you were the type to rehash a grievance whenever it suited."

    I winced. "Argh!" I exclaimed and let my end of our connection become less obscured.
    My mischief streak would land me in big Gundark poodoo one day, if not today. "Well, let me just open my mouth and insert both feet!" I groaned. I couldn't even smirk or laugh!

    "Nyota..." He breathed, and I could tell he wasn't sure whether to be amused or irritated. (Frankly, my father often had the same issue with my mother. I guess I came by it honestly. Kashore was mischievous but she wasn't as incorrigible as I was!)

    "Forget it. That was one pile of bantha fodderI just laid out there. Can you just ..."

    Without hesitating, he reached to draw me close, hearing my silent request to be held.

    I related my conversation with Captain Kryukov, sans editoralizing this time.

    HE stroked my shoulders as I talked, and I sighed as I concluded. "My darling, darling love. It really is not something that truly bothers me, as to trusting your feelings for me, and so on. Yet, whenever I think we could - that we might have existed without one another from now on ... something inside just ..." I trailed off, at a loss for adequate expression.

    He answered slowly. "I believe you need some further convincing that I could not have withstood that as much as yourself."

    I held his gaze eagerly.
    "Now, that absolutely is fine by me! Bring it on, sweetest!"

    ++++++

    SQUGGLES!
     
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  2. RX_Sith

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    Spock consoling Nyota on her conundrum as he put it is fascinating as he would say as well.
     
  3. Mira_Jade

    Mira_Jade The Fanfic Manager With The Cape star 5 Staff Member Manager

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    And here I begin my catching up . . .

    With the last one, I loved the tone with her talk with Sherralyn. That is definitely a reason for mingled joy and sorrow. I loved the Pooh Bear motif! [face_love]

    And I really, really liked the latest one. Nyota definitely had career options (and it was fascinating to see Myna in this 'verse ;)), and she chose the option that would let her share a path with Spock. I too wanted to wince at her phrasing, though, even while completely understanding what she intended to say and why. Thankfully, their mutual understanding and discomfort over the situation let them move forward cleanly. This -

    HE stroked my shoulders as I talked, and I sighed as I concluded. "My darling, darling love. It really is not something that truly bothers me, as to trusting your feelings for me, and so on. Yet, whenever I think we could - that we might have existed without one another from now on ... something inside just ..." I trailed off, at a loss for adequate expression.

    He answered slowly. "I believe you need some further convincing that I could not have withstood that as much as yourself."

    - was just perfectly stated. I loved every word of that! [face_love]

    =D=[:D]
     
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  4. earlybird-obi-wan

    earlybird-obi-wan Chosen One star 6

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    loved it. To see that she had all those options and went on a path coming towards her true love
     
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  5. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    [face_dancing] :) [face_sigh]

    Yup, she definitely had feels surrounding that whole situation, mostly about an eek! over what-if. [face_thinking] It was so beyond her own realm of being able to make that particular choice, i.e., a path, any path, away from "us" ... that it made her all squicky thinking he could/almost might have.
     
  6. NYCitygurl

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    Aww, this is so sweet! I'm glad Nyota is happy with the choice she made.
     
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  7. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    I'm chuffed with it, too. LOL [face_love]
     
  8. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    AN: Inspired by an L/M sitch.

    ~!

    Miranda sends me notes on her research projects, one involving neural plasticity for those who suffer sensory or other damage. One intriguing one is rerouting the visual and/or auditory sensorimotor areas when these are compromised, and dream mapping is another one, where one can initiate lucid dreaming from the "outside" thus teaching one how to do it internally.

    I write back that I kept dream logs growing up so I have a heightened awareness of my dreams. I also have lucid dreamt on more than one occasion.

    Growing up, these involved revisiting happy family times. Now, they involve the present and future paths - involving career goals and personal aspirations.

    "My sister had a lucid dream, once." I told Miranda. "She and Dajan were talking about having kids, and she wasn't sure she wanted one at that particular time, although she knew she did eventually, in the abstract. But when she dreamt of being a mommy, she woke up with such a happy feeling of serenity that she knew it was time to go off the repressors."

    "Gah!" Miranda sent back, with a rolling-eyes emoticon. "What if she realized she didn't want to have kids even after telling him she did? I mean, was confused about it. My cousin did that, and whew! The cold shoulder that followed that revelation was - Arctic!"

    I grimaced in sympathy. I hoped whenever our time came to expand our family there wouldn't be such a misunderstanding!


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  9. NYCitygurl

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    Yikes! Quite a misunderstanding indeed!
     
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  10. Mira_Jade

    Mira_Jade The Fanfic Manager With The Cape star 5 Staff Member Manager

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    It really is interesting, the effects of dreams - but ouch, that's a big thing to have a misunderstanding over! :oops::( Though I'm sure that Nyota will have little to worry about when that time comes. ;)

    And wow! The idea of the lucid dreaming for those with sensory handicaps - really, really awesome, and I wish that our medicine was up to something like that. How cool! )
     
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  11. earlybird-obi-wan

    earlybird-obi-wan Chosen One star 6

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    Loved the new entries about the dreams and the carreer options and staying with her love
     
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  12. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    Yolette won her way into my gal-pal circle by bringing chocolate cobbler. Not that I didn't like her before, but this definitely won her points!

    The crust was flaky and the chocolate all melty. Each bite was chocolatey, and the topping was made of crispy crunchy caramel.

    "Delicious!" I told her.

    She and Jenna Benson talked about all things botanical at our gatherings & I would roll my eyes teasingly and hold the glances of the other ladies as if to say: Talking shop again... although strictly speaking Yolette was not in the bio section, though Jenna was. Yolette was a technical/engineering expert, who was interested in a guy who a few centuries ago would have either been a cartographer or an adventuring sailor on the high seas or one of the Three Musketeers.

    "You just never know who you'll get interested in romantically." I told Yolette after reflecting on her and Sulu's intriguing admixture.

    "And I bet you can definitely speak from experience there!" Yolette exclaimed, her gray eyes laughing.

    I beamed, as my tummy melted. "I assuredly wasn't looking to fall in love where I did, but oh, the logic of my choice."

    We laughed at the accurate play on words.

    ++++++

    ;)
     
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  13. earlybird-obi-wan

    earlybird-obi-wan Chosen One star 6

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    Love her reflections on Yolette and the logic choice to be with a logical vulcan
     
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  14. Mira_Jade

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    And now I really could go for some chocolate cobbler. That sounded delicious. [face_laugh]

    I really liked the bit on Yolette - it's wonderful to see Nyota's circle of friends feature so strongly here, as always, but -

    "I assuredly wasn't looking to fall in love where I did, but oh, the logic of my choice."

    [face_laugh] You truly can word it no better than that! [face_love]

    =D=[:D]
     
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  15. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    They never told me, my family never mentioned it. The moments of heart-wrenching anxiety whenever even a tiny bit of a harrowing situation I had been caught in got back to them. Not in what they said or how they phrased their messages. The only indications I got were extra-fervent wishes for me to keep safe and warmer than usual expressions of affection. Later, when we had occasion to be together, in person, I thanked them for their restraint. I know very well it wasn't (could not have been) easy for them to hold back. "What good would it have been to burden you with our worries during and after?" My mom said. "Your coming back to us safely was what really counted."

    "And each time that indomitable crew of yours helped to bring you (and the rest of the team) out safe," Poppa added, "just increased the depth of gratitude."

    I have one amazing family!

    ++++++

    :D

    @};-
     
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  16. NYCitygurl

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    That made me actually tear up a little! They must have been terribly worried (especially after those missions where they barely made it back and a lot of others didn't). Her family must have been absolutely frantic at times!
     
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  17. earlybird-obi-wan

    earlybird-obi-wan Chosen One star 6

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    Love her entry about the worrying family. she has indeed one big family
     
  18. divapilot

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    Catching up (again!) I really love the voice that Nyota has.Who wouldn't fall in love with her? She is so intelligent, so kindhearted. Her conversations with Spock are tender and show mutual affection and concern for each other.

    What I like best is her caring for her girlfriends. I see it so often when a woman falls in love, she lets her friends drop. Here is the opposite - when Nyota is in love, her friends are even more important to her! They celebrate each other's successes and joys, and they bear each other up through their sorrows. [:D]
     
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  19. Mira_Jade

    Mira_Jade The Fanfic Manager With The Cape star 5 Staff Member Manager

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    Oh, but I loved this update. The idea of a child being in danger is no easy thing for parents and loved ones to endure - but here it just strengthens the love and the value of their bond with the support shared between them.

    This was beautiful. Every word. [face_love]=D=
     
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  20. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    After the incident on Kamiri, I stopped in for a checkup & Jana smiled when she gave me confirmation that I had not gained, and would not, suffer any lingering ill effects. "Which could have been very much up in the air. Did Yolette tell you what she and the rest of us did?"

    I smiled. "No."

    Jana told me. "And Spock never read us the riot act when he found out. He gave us full assistance and official approval."

    My tummy flipped. "Really?"

    "Any one who says Vulcans are stiff as planks are morons." Jana commented.

    I laughed. "More like, to borrow more than one metaphor: rock your world and float your boat."

    We laughed.

    +++++

    SQUEEEEE!
     
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  21. earlybird-obi-wan

    earlybird-obi-wan Chosen One star 6

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    Jana and Ny are very good judges of Vulcans
     
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  22. NYCitygurl

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    [face_laugh] I love the metaphors :D
     
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  23. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    So do I. [face_love]
     
  24. Mira_Jade

    Mira_Jade The Fanfic Manager With The Cape star 5 Staff Member Manager

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    [face_laugh][face_love] There really is no truer metaphor than that. ;) I loved Jana's perspective on this one - but of course, Nyota already more than knows. ;) [face_love]

    =D=
     
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  25. WarmNyota_SweetAyesha

    WarmNyota_SweetAyesha Chosen One star 8

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    :) [face_sigh] Nyota is divinely blessed. [face_love] [face_love]