Saga The Fear You Won't Fall - OC's, Obi-Wan - AN: 9/29

Title: The Fear You Won't Fall
Author: Ashley
Time frame: inter-trilogy
Pairings: Obi-Wan/Aala
Genre: Drama/Romance
Disclaimer: Star Wars is the property of George Lucas. This story is for entertainment purposes only. No infringement of rights is intended.

Summary: As Obi-Wan begins his vigil on Tatooine, Aala struggles to find her way in a dark and dangerous new galaxy. Unsure of when she will see him again and devoted to aiding the Resistance, soon she'll have to decide what she really wants. Sequel to http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/31362065/p1/?7]Fallen[/url]


Author's Note: The sequel to Fallen is here! Sort of This chapter in particular is more of a teaser, though it is very similar to the way Fallen opens: a scene from later in the story that introduces something emotionally important to Aala. This scene actually touches on the main issues of this story that Aala will have to deal with so I'm especially anxious for some feedback. This story is a bit different from Fallen and, to be honest posting a new story is scary! I'm really unsure about it - I know there's not a lot of content here to review, but I'd love to know if you're interested in reading more. Or if it seems completely silly, you can let me know that, too Many thanks to laloga, as always, for her continuing support and feedback

The Fear You Won't Fall is a lovely song by Joshua Radin. As always, I recommend a listen

~Ashley

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Exhausted and overcome with a bone deep weariness from two days of chaos on Bellassa, Aala trudged up the ramp of the sleek star skiff. Her limbs were heavy with fatigue, the muscles in her legs straining with each step forward, and she thanked the stars above for the deep cover of night. A hasty retreat seemed completely out of the realm of her capabilities right now, physically or mentally.

As she pulled herself into the helm of the intimate luxury yacht, her focus slid to one thing in particular ? the oversized lounge seat set into the far wall of the main hold ? the place where she?d been sleeping since they began the journey on this ship, and a wave of contented relief washed over her. It was a tiny ship, and there wasn?t much to be said for her ?bed? but it was more than comfortable enough for her, especially when she was this tired.

Finally, finally they were headed to Alderaan and her chest swelled with nostalgia. The flourishing planet was as much a ?home? to her as Naboo, and she was glad to be going back after so long, even despite the space travel.

[I]Maybe exhaustion isn?t such a bad thing,[/I] she mused as she arranged the pillows on the lounge seat. She fully intended to be asleep for the entirety of the trip. Unconsciousness always made space a bit more palatable, in her opinion.

Besides that, she?d just about had it with present company, and she wasn?t going to put anymore thought into it, into [I]him[/I], until she had at least 10 hours of sleep behind her. Honestly, she just wanted to be alone. For days, if she could manage it.

Unthinking, not caring about anything else, Aala climbed into her makeshift bed, a deep sigh escaping as she settled into the soft cushions. Trusting her companion to handle their departure safely on his own, she was sound asleep within minutes.

*

Aala had no idea how long it had been, but far too soon she was surfacing from the bliss of deep sleep. Distinct sensations registered one by one as she slowly came to: The weight of the blanket on top of her, the cool air recycling through the ship?s ventilation, the hum of the hyperdrive, and someone ? someone was there with her, but she couldn?t quite bring herself to care.

Just as she was beginning to forget everything and slip back under, something, a feeling, was rousing her again.

Him.

At first, she was only aware of his roughened fingertip ? tracing the line of her jaw from just under her ear to the point of her chin, caressing the slope of her neck over her throat, then drawing little patterns

 

Ooooooooh that was nummy! Nummy! I had no idea !!! Aala was fast in a dream, very vivid and very nice.

That it was ... somewhat able to pick up where it had left off ... leads me to think Obi-Wan was doing something force-wise to connect; which means squee! he thinks of and misses and desires her too.

Oh yes! This definitely needs to continue. I'd love to see Aala's part in the Alliance-building and their story together begin and flow together like a river whose paths are flowing like they should.






!!!

 

OK, that was hot... I kept waiting for the moment...you know... Ahh..Obi-hotness...

but then to wake and find it was a dream and that another man was watching her? How disappointing and embarrassing. The second part I was concerned that this man had snuck into her room and was taking advantage of her dreaming...I don't know..but it sounds interesting...

 

What an awesome start!

 

Ahhh, obimom, I promise Jace is a good guy! He won't take advantage of her and he wasn't trying to watch her, he did wake her up, he's just teasing, perhaps a little rudely. I think of him kind of like Han, a hot blooded Corellian, but with a good heart. Hopefully he'll prove that in time. He has a couple little parts in Fallen, if you remember. But you don't need to worry about Aala!

 

Sizzling, so hot and so fantastic that your doing a sequel. There is hope that Obi-Wan will pop up.

She cant help herself, but think of him. Who wouldn't think of him doing what she was dreaming he was doing.

good start, no... Sizzling start.

 

Very sweet, the idea that maybe Obi-Wan is able to visit Aala in her dreams and talk to her about things. I really hope they have a reunion on Tatooine--and this Jace kid reminds me a bit of Han. Looking forward to more of Aala's adventures! Great start.

 

Mmmm. Steamy, I can't wait for this to continue. I am fine with being on the PM list!

 

I really liked Jace Ryen's character! He seems like a bit of a scoundrel

 

Whew! Need to take a second...

Okay! Well, I really loved this intro! Your level of detail always astounds me: the sand under Obi's nails, the "stormy ring of blue" of his eyes, the feel of the ship's air...it makes this experience so, undeniably real.

This was amazing: "But before she could plead again he was above her and all around her, heating her, and his mouth was on hers, caressing and coaxing. It only took the lightest touch of his tongue to her lips for her to open to him and the kiss deepened until she couldn?t breath any more."

Cannot wait for this story!!!

 

Jade_eyes: he thinks of and misses and desires her too --I think that definitely hits the nail on the head Lots of figuring out the Alliance and figuring out how to get things re-started with Obi to come! Thanks for reading and reviewing!


obimom: I'm always happy to deliver on the Obi-hotness, he makes it easy I'm glad you liked it!! I do try to write a bit of plot now and again, not so easy, but I do try Jace is a scoundrel, for sure, but the good kind, and I think he'll prove himself to be a good friend, too. Thanks for reviewing!


The1stJediPrincess: Thank you! I hope you enjoy the rest, as well


Gkilkenny: Obi-Wan will pop up, eventually, I promise They can only resist each other so long, especially with dreams like that keeping the fire stoked. I'm happy you liked it, thanks for replying!!


Luna_Nightshade: I like the idea that they are connected, in some way... but even if it is Obi initiating the 'dream', I don't think Aala has 'talking' on her mind Still sweet, though, I think. Jace does have a bit of Han, in him, I think And I do believe a reunion is inevitable, but nothing has ever been all easy for Aala, more adventures first. Thanks for the review!!


Raphire: I'm so happy you were able to start this! Thanks for reading! I have to admit, I was going for steamy to start things off, just for fun Thanks again!


slow_dawn: He is definitely a bit of a scoundrel! Makes things interesting Aala's going to have quite a job figuring out how to handle him. I'm so glad you like the character, good to hear, for sure, there will be quite a bit of him in this story, and I have plans for him in the future, as well. He has some back story in Fallen, if you're interested. Thanks for reading and reviewing! I really appreciate it


laloga: Thanks!! This was amazing: "But before she could plead again he was above her and all around her, heating her, and his mouth was on hers, caressing and coaxing. It only took the lightest touch of his tongue to her lips for her to open to him and the kiss deepened until she couldn?t breath any more." -- Just thought that bears repeating Thank you, thank you. I'm really glad to hear you loved it, still



One more big thanks to everyone reading and reviewing, I really appreciate it Post coming in a little bit!

 

Come find me

It hasn?t felt like this before
It hasn?t felt like home, before you

And I know it?s easy to say
But it?s harder to feel, this way

And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I would
Can?t get my mind off you


I know you?re scared that I?ll soon be over it
That?s part of if all

Part of the beauty of falling in love with you
Is the fear you won?t fall

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It was late, nearing midnight. Heavy curtains were drawn around the bed against both the chill of the night air and the shining light of the moon. Despite the hour, neither the Queen or her Prince were asleep ? though she couldn?t see him, shrouded as they were in complete darkness, she knew.

?I don?t think we should.?

?Breha... I know how you feel. But now more than ever... we have to seem... we have to seem as if all is well.?

?I?m afraid, Bail. If anyone were to suspect ??

?That is why we must not act as though we have anything to hide. Holding a ball now, the Emperor will see it as support, and the best thing we can do is to look as though we support the new Empire. Besides that ? Breha ? I will not live in fear. I will not sacrifice our traditions, our way of life...?

?I... I know. Bail... There?s more, isn?t there??

?Yes... Anti-Imperial protests are inevitable, I know that, but if there is to be a true resistance, we have to bide our time, work covertly. I?ve heard reports of other factions of resistance in the galaxy, and it gives me hope for the future, but if they attract too much attention now, the Emperor will crush them swiftly... and easily.?

?Bail... what can that possibly have to do with holding a ball??

?I can send coded messages in some of the invitations to those leaders I can contact openly without suspicion. And a few others, as well ? Aala, hopefully.?

?Aala??

?She can make contact with those I cannot. Her skill with people and... staying unnoticed, has always been invaluable to me. If we can build connections ? garner support and exchange information quietly, I think we have a chance. This is the safest way to contact her; the safest way to ask this of her. No one could suspect...?

?Then I suppose... we?re having a ball.?

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[blockquote][i]
His Serene Highness, Prince Consort Bail Prestor Organa
and
Queen Breha Organa of Alderaan
cordially invite you to the annual Royal Ball
in honor of
the Royal Family, House Organa

To take place in the Grand Ballroom of Aldera Royal Palace, Alderaan
16:11:11[/i][/blockquote]


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The invitations to the Royal Ball on Alderaan were planned and prepared months ahead of time. Swirly white lettering and simple decorative embellishments were etched onto individual pieces of expensive, frosted flimsiplast.

Instead of being sent as data messages, they were to be delivered ? a tradition dating back hundreds of years to a time when invitations to the Royal Ball were written on parchment and hand delivered by royal couriers across all of Alderaan.

Nothing was as important to Bail Organa in these critical moments as keeping up appearances.

Each of the invitations was couture, unique to the recipient. The differences were minute in many cases: a slight difference in a decorative border perhaps; unnoticeable unless compared. Some were styled to reflect the culture of the home world of the invited guest, while some were more personalized, and others, a few in particular, more unique yet...

They were posted well in advance. The galaxy was not what it used to be. Bail could only hope his impeccable Imperial voting record thus far had kept him far above any suspicions.

It was only a ball, one that had occurred on the same date annually for hundreds of years, but the Emperor had been dogged and Bail worried still, despite the odds in his favor. It was clear anyone or anything short of whole hearted support of the New Ord

 

I wonder if they end up at the ball together, ummm doubt it. Too dangerous for our fav Jedi.
Now i'm going off to look at your artwork

 

Excellent stuff with Breha and Bail at the beginning

Wonderful dad/daughter moments between Aala and Ruwee. He's a warm, loving, easy to talk to type

I, like Gkilkenny, hope they meet at the ball - SQUEE!

LOL

 

So glad to see this up!

I love what you're setting up here, so many interesting things going on, and in such a dangerous time in galactic history. I can't wait to see what Aala gets involved in at the ball. Love the invitation's progress from Alderaan to Naboo...felt very cinematic!

Aala's dad kind of stole the scene for me - it was lovely to see his and his daughter's relationship, how he knew her so well and gently urged her to do what she wanted to do. The river conversation was wonderful!

And Obi-Wan! Love the image of him in the desert, walking into another adventure.

Can't wait to see what's next!

 

I do very much hope that Aala and Obi-Wan are able to run into each other. I loved the 2 different images of Aala talking to her father about going to Alderaan...and the ball invitations were such a fun way to look into the Empire here. So very exciting, this ball! I'm looking forward to more. Great update!

 

Gkilkenny: It would be dangerous, but just about everything at this point is particularly dangerous, I think. Thanks for the comment!

Jade_eyes: I really enjoyed writing Bail and Breha and was happy at how it turned out, it's nice to know someone else enjoyed it as well! Same with Aala and her dad, I think Aala might have needed a fair amount of guidance at certain times in her life and she would've come to appreciate her father very much, and they would've been close. Love those sweet moments. Aala definitely has finding a way to meet Obi-Wan in the back of her mind Thanks for reading and replying!

laloga: Thanks for the reply! It's been a struggle to set things up the way I want them, I really appreciate your feedback and am glad you like it

Luna_Nightshade: Aala and Obi-Wan really hope to run into each other as well, and I really hope they run into each other I think we're all headed in the same direction I'm glad you liked how I used the invitations to show how the Empire was being run, that was very hard for me to get right. The ball will prove to be eventful, for sure, but it might be a bumpy path to get there. Thank you so much for your comments! I really appreciate it!


I am working hard on the next part! I'm not much for word counts, but I do plan on tackling November with enthusiasm and am committed to writing *something* every day. Right now, my plan is to focus on just writing, so as not to get overwhelmed, but if I have extra time, I'll get something ready to post. However, it might be a little bit before this gets an update, but hopefully by December I will have written ahead and there will be updates closer together.

In the meantime, if you haven't left a comment yet, let me know what you think! Sometimes the littlest things can provide the most inspiration, and it is always encouraging Thanks for reading! ~Ashley

 

So I finally found my password so I could log on and comment. I read your story Fallen last night and I have to tell you I was quite impressed. I usually dont like ObiWan with anyone but Siri but I really enjoyed your fic. And thank you for the the nod to Siri's death, It gave the pairing more acceptability in my eyes. Of course like any good fan girl- who can resist the charms of ObiWan Kenobi?, so go ahead and pour on the heat! I read the last jedi series so it will be fun to see how you work around it. Please put me on your pm list.

 

Thanks so much for letting me know you're enjoying the story! I really appreciate it. I started writing Fallen long before I knew of Siri, but after years of being an Obi-Wan fan, I really felt like she should be included as an important part of his story. That chapter was one of the easiest to write, I think it was an important moment for Obi-Wan, I'm glad you liked it.

There will definitely be some more heat, eventually I look forward to your feedback! It's a bit more challenging writing in this era, and I will certainly add you to the pm list.

I'm planning the next post for this sometime next week.

Thanks again!

 

Just a small AN: though Obi-Wan isn?t the main focus of this story, I am going to include him when and where ever I can, and I will fully make it up to him at the end. I had a lot of fun writing his section in this chapter, and I hope you all enjoy it.

Many thanks to laloga, as always, who worked complete magic on this, and spent much of Saturday discussing and helping me with it. If you?re an Obi-Wan fan, make sure to check out her Small Luxuries (and make sure to ?encourage? her for more )

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It was late, only inky darkness lay beyond the glass windows. Aala had borrowed her father?s study after her parents had gone to bed, and she sat for a moment at his desk, looking out into the night, thinking.

Shaking her head, Aala suddenly realized just how tired she was, but before she stood up to leave the room, she ran through the details in her mind one more time. It was a habit she had formed quickly when she started working for SBI; a good agent had to have a perfect memory.

She was not surprised, after an hour of translating Bail?s message on the invitation, to learn that the entirety of what he wanted her to do was to take place before she ever arrived on Alderaan.

A blind date ? she and Bail had jokingly called it ? a cold call, a way to feel someone out. Sometimes subject matter such as this had to be handled delicately to say the least, and it was important to know your allies, but dangerous as well to put yourself out there in uncertain times.

But Aala knew [i]people[/i]. And she knew Bail ? well enough to figure out what he would expect without him having to spell it out.

In the message, he?d given her the names of two planets ? Corellia and Bellassa, and a list of names for both, a few of the names she recognized, and one simple p.s. ? [i]See if you can make some friends.[/i]

She knew her mission for now would be to simply begin to make contacts ? contacts that could eventually evolve into a network, and more.

[i]Maybe the ball is my reward,[/i] she thought to herself with a smile as she destroyed all evidence of Bail?s message and tidied up her father?s desk. But then she couldn?t help but think of a much more enjoyable reward...

Aala shook her head again. [i]It?s too much to hope, to see him,[/i] she told herself. [i]He couldn?t risk it, not right now, not for a ball... [/i] and somewhere deep in the back of her mind she couldn?t help but think, [i]and certainly not for me.[/i]

Still, she promised herself she would find a way... some how, some day, but she vowed not to worry about it now ? she had work to do and she would need her rest.



[hr]

Her vow lasted all of about 20 minutes.

The nights were always the hardest and although she had her new task to occupy her thoughts, this night was no different.

Aala tried to keep herself from becoming overly sentimental, no good would come of it in the end, there was no point, but laying alone, in the dark quiet, in the room she?d had as a girl, she often found herself philosophizing about the things that had happened ? Padmé and Anakin?s decisions, Obi-Wan?s, and hers, and what it meant to be in love.

How odd it seemed to her that just as soon as she?d had her fears about the destructive qualities of love validated by her own sister she?d finally jumped headlong into it herself, acknowledged it, embraced it even.

When she had confessed to Obi-Wan, it had come from somewhere deep inside, and her heart was speaking the words before her head knew what was going on. But she knew it was true and it had been for a long time.

Often, she couldn?t help but think about when she might have changed. From their very first meeting, he?d put her off guard in a way no one else ever had and she only saw now how that had affected her.

At the time, she?d had very little romantic experience with men in general. In school, she?d often been brooding in her own little world or solely focused on her studies.

Even now, she had only a few relationships to speak of: the close friendship

 

She can't get him out of her mind and I'm not surprised, neither can I. It would be nice if they could see each other just once.
Ah is that wishful thinking on my part.

 

I love Aala, and her descriptions of the Naberrie family, and also the love she still keeps for Obi-Wan. I especially liked the conversation with their grandmother. Your descriptions of all of it are so gorgeous and so much fun to enjoy. I hope there will be more soon.

 

Ashley:

Loved the flashback and the family moments. Oh, the ball! Is coming up! LOL

 

Gkilkenny: I can't either, he is always in my head! It is wishful thinking, but wishes do come true These two really deserve a happy surprise, I think. Thanks for reviewing!!


Luna_Nightshade: I'm so glad you liked it, the relationships between the characters, Aala and her family, and her and Obi-Wan are what's most important to me to write and I love she's keeping a flame lit for her Obi It's fun to write, too. I'm working on more right now! I wish I had more time to write faster, but thank you so much for staying with it. I so appreciate your comments!


Jade_eyes: Thanks!! I'm glad you're enjoying it. Oh that ball Have to get Aala to the ball on time! Thanks for reading and reviewing


I'm working on the next post now, please leave a comment if you like, it always inspires me

 

How have I not reviewed this, yet?!

Sigh...anyway...

Just love how you open with her thinking of her upcoming mission, which then turns into Obi-wonderings. It was a nice way to chronicle their time together for the reader, but it also so clearly showed how her feelings for him are much deeper than simple "lust" or even affection...and I loved the "are you real" moment in her bedroom! So beautiful!

Loved the relationship between Aala and her grandmother, and the details of Naboo tradition that you included. One of the things I've noticed about Aala is how wonderfully strong and supportive her family is, and I loved the line about her having to "hold it together" after Padme's death. It's going to be tough on her to leave, but I'm glad that she has a solid foundation.

And - just as she's about to depart - something holds her back! Typho! Loved how you integrated canon into this part, for his story is a difficult one, to be sure.

Looking forward to more of her adventures!